.06. No more lives

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Like a natural process, Estelles' past memories flooded my mind, that's when I realized

Had i lived twice?

I took my small hands and touched my throat, 

as I thought,

I had lived my first life in this world, as Estelle, and my second life as Choo-Hee in Korea, 

that time i wished for a happily ever after right?

but had my wish been granted? my life was miserable, my two lives both were,

as Choo-Hee, I lived with an alcoholic mom who abused me, my father had affairs away in strip clubs.

my brothers smoked weed and i was bullied for being the weird kid because I read manga,

they should just take care of their own business!

After school i always returned home with a soaked uniform, 

"do you think I have time for this! useless bitch!" that's what my so called mom told me, or yelled at me,

"I only adopted you for the money! do i have to bother with your shit too!" 

the sound of the breaking bottle was heard after those words, those same words she yells at me every time i saw her

you think i wanted to be your adopted daughter! 

I fled to my room and cried my eyes out, this was my daily routine, but i never got used to it,
can i? can anyone be able to? if so,
i envy them

"hey come here!" 

my brother called out to me, in due time i had became their little servant, i was ordered to do this and that but i hated it when they got drunk because the demands only got worse,

"sit on my lap" he patted the area on his tight, disgusting

they're drunk, again...

"no!" what now! are you going to rape me!

they both snickered, Beom-seok being the stubborn one pulled my arm,

"you think you have a word with this, obey and do as we say!" 

"look she's blushing! what a whore you are, acting all innocent and blushing like that in this situation!"

I get that a lot, my face deceives me at times, i was frustrated and your grip was too hard!

i kicked his leg painful enough for him to let me go, and did what any other normal person would do in my position

I took a run for it, 

the street lights were beautiful, but i never had time to admire them, my eyes were soaked and my legs were tired from the long run

"get her Kang-dae!"

"damn she's fast"

 i stopped when they had grabbed me

"let me go!"

"shut up! you'll get us in trouble!"

we were on a bridge, a crowd of people could be seen from afar, 

my chance!

"HEL-!!!"

"I said shut up!" 

"get your hands off me!"

i pushed, and I slipped, slowly i had lost view of them and suddenly felt cold, my breathing, i couldn't hear it anymore, I feel...wet?

drowning, I'm drowning!

i tried to reach the shore, but i didn't know how to swim,

how ironic, i'm not some kind of FL in a webnovel!

i tried to pull my hands forward in hope that someone might come for me, but no one ever came, even the muffling sounds of those brothers of mine had disappeared, 

they really left me, i thought that they'd come get me for fear of getting in trouble, ,or save me out of guilt,

but they really left, 

I hope you go to hell and burn in the white fires!

I wish you had never adopted me in the first place!

in webnovels, when one dies a pitiful death or a violent life, they get reborn or reincarnate,

this is pitiful right? will I reincarnate? or even if i died in my past life and wished for a happy life, why did i get this instead! am I really that hated, even by god!

Then,

I NO LONGER WANT TO LIVE ANYMOREEE!!!

just as I had wanted to die that time, as if destiny was playing games with me,

i returned

back to my misery.

back to my first life 

as a minor character 

destined to die.


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