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I think I made a mistake. A big one.
I don't know why I did it. There was no reason for it, and I haven't been thinking about it. It sort of just...happened.
I sort of thought it might be time for a change. A good one! Like the one I made just a few months back.
Usually I'd think it over some more. Maybe sleep on the idea and see how I feel in about a week.
I slept on the idea, but failed to wait a week.
With a deep breath, I lift my hand to comb it through my hair in the mirror. It stops just below my chin now.
It's not like it looks bad or anything. I have myself some nice layers, and I have a good texture to my hair. It's wavy.
It's just very...high school Tess.
Yikes.
My nose scrunches when I huff and slam the heels of my palms down in the bathroom counter, leaning in closer to the mirror.
At least when I dyed it, I'd been thinking about doing it for months. And I didn't really mean to cut it. I just wanted to see what it'd look like!
"It's just hair." I repeat the same thing I normally tell the nervous people who want a change that sit in the chair in front of me. "It'll grow back." I shrug softly.
And hey! Maybe this is cute. I mean, it is cute. But maybe not for me.
I'm not usually this...random. A bunch of things have been happening as of late, but I never do such compulsive things. I think this has just been me finally letting myself be.
Even though I kind of regret the last hour and a half, I start to smile at my reflection and straighten up.
I laugh.
I laugh because I'm too old to be compulsively cutting and dyeing my hair at the drop of a shoe. I laugh because my luck so far as gone to shit, and it's starting to become funny.
I laugh because my phone starts to ring with a conveniently timed phone call from one of the people I haven't been able to stop thinking about.
He's sort of just been in the back of my mind always. I keep finding myself wondering what he's doing, who he's with, and what he'd think of whatever I'm doing.
I've never been so concerned with what a boy might be doing or what he might think about me in my life. It's kind of sickening.
I'm still laughing at myself when I answer his call before it can go to voicemail. "Yeah?" I giggle.
Wasn't I just on the phone with Levi? That didn't end well for me. For either of us, really. I probably shouldn't be on the phone with him right now.
Levi doesn't answer me for a few seconds even though he's the one who called me. "Hey." He mutters.
"Hi." I laugh some more and play with my hair in the mirror. I try pulling it in a ponytail, but end up just laughing at how tiny it is. It's kind of cute.
"What's so funny?" He asks quietly, confused. Maybe he thinks I'm laughing at him, I don't know.
"A lot of things." I simply answer, still giggling like a schoolgirl. "What's up?" I coax, silently wondering why he's decided to call me now.
The last time we were on the phone, I pissed him off and then hung up to eat my over salted food. We haven't talked since.
It's a little sad how we've drifted apart over the past couple of weeks. It may or may not be my fault too.
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Just Friends
RomanceTess isn't really sure when the feelings she has for her childhood best friend began to bloom, but they did. And now she's been saddled with the dilemma of not only having feelings for her childhood best friend, but also having feelings for her chil...