The Darker Side of Me

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I am not a butterfly,
I will not lose my hearing aids after middle school,
College will roll around and I will still have glasses,
I will not grow up and get married to a man,
I will Never condemn someone I am supposed to love more than myself to a hell masquerading as life,
Because that's what you're asking me to do by bringing a child into this world, condemn them to a life of doctors appointments and fear,
Oh, I'm sorry did you think I saw my hearing aids as anything else?
No, they represent fear, and my hope for another life, a life that will never happen,
See I had to handle this when I could comprehend it,
My baby?
My bundle of joy?
Should never have to handle it in the first place.
So no, to answer your question, my flaws are something I say are beautiful, but they are still something I had to teach myself to think of as beauty.
I will ever give to anyone else them.
And just to get it cleared up, I will go deaf I will have bad eyesight, I will get married to a woman, I will adopt a child, but I will handle it.
You will leave me alone with it.
Because my body's my body, and I will handle it.

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