Diary

Diary: Chapter Seven

That's exactly what happened, I was suspended for an entire week and when I get back, I was on school probation that meant one fuck up, and I was suspended for another week. I was sure that Megan had got a more crucial punishment because she was always on the side of trouble. I pulled my backpack up on my shoulders and shoved my hands in my pockets aggressively as I walked toward my apartment, I was furious inside but I knew that as much as I wanted to go after Charlie, I couldn't. 

I could do her like she did me, I could damage her image with the few rumors I heard but I couldn't find it in myself to try and get payback on her. I was the bigger person and that was what I was going to be after today, I had let Megan get the best of me and now I was paying for it. I still didn't regret it. However, this was the perfect time to visit family now that I had an entire week free of school, they were going to be upset but I missed them enough to suffer the bickering and whining they would send my way. 

"Hope!" I heard someone yell and looked behind me in confusion to who was calling me and upon seeing who it was, my eyes nearly rolled out of my head while I quickly hurried away from campus, wanting to avoid Charlie at all cost. "Hope, wait, please. I'm sorry." 

I ignored her, walking faster as she quickly rushed behind me, and if I wasn't so upset about my main secret being spread around the entire school, I would of been hypnotized by her busty breast jumping in her small crop top. Minus that, the skintight jeans she wore showed her nice, big butt that was so squeezable, that's not the problem... focus on the problem, focus Hope. Charlie continued to stumble behind me as I walked toward the bus station that I would catch to get to the apartment, I just wanted to be alone to think about my next few moves. 

It was time for find another school, time to move to a different location and start all over, again. It wasn't the first time this happened and while I thought last time was the last time, apparently I have to learn to stop trusting any and everyone. Charlie was someone I had thought I could trust and I should of expected that things wouldn't go as I planned, I had hope she'd accept me but looks like we can't have everything we wanted. It was fun while it lasted. 

I need to start a new life again. "Hope!" Charlie huffed. "I said I was sorry!"

"Sorry? You're fucking sorry? Okay, you be sorry. Leave me the fuck alone, Charlie." I growled angrily while whirling around to face her, fed up with her playing victim about this shit. 

"No." She said timidly. "I didn't know this would happen. I was just so confused and I wanted to talk to Delilah about it, I thought she wouldn't tell anyone... I thought..."

"You thought she'd keep my secret? See Charlie, that's where you're dumb as fuck. You were supposed to be my diary, not her! I told you, not her!" I said, no longer able to keep my filter in check. "That's the same hoe that make rumors about you, the same bitch that told everyone you had some random dude nut on your face for a hundred dollars. She can't be trusted, and obviously I can't trust you either." I started walking away again.

I never wanted Charlie to see that Delilah wasn't her friend and as genuine I always thought I was being by not outing their fake friendship, it came around and bit me in the ass in the end, Delilah had told my business to everyone but at the end of the day, Charlie was the first step. Perhaps Charlie was the victim in this as well but that didn't change anything, people wouldn't point at her and laugh about it, or look at her in sadness or pity about this. She wouldn't have to have a daily reminder for the rest of her life, she didn't understand how I felt, no one did unless they were in my shoes. 

I hate my life.

"T-That's not true." Charlie sniffled, making me halt mid-step as I realized she was crying...