REMINISCENT

CHAPTER ELEVEN: park encounter (EDITED)

I looked back at Chanel questioning her silence only to see a tear roll down her cheek
What the hell !?

Ashley's POV
I stared at her in disbelief, isn't this great news is she really sad about being a big sister ?

" Uh Chanel sweety are you not happy? " Chantel questioned, hurt by her daughters actions.

Chanel burst out in tears beaming at her mom, she stood up and enveloped her in a big bear hug which made Ian and I visibly relax

" mom that's so great! I thought you'd be the barer of bad news" she choked out "as usual"

"as usual? And bad news like what? " she hugged her back

"like we're moving" she wiped her tears staring at her mom

"why would we move?" She frowned confused

"it doesn't matter, this is great!" she squealed "I've always wanted to be a big sister" then took a seat next to Chantel "but why did you wait 19yrs to give me a sibling? " she sobered up while fanning her flashed face

I curiously stared at Chantel as she played with her fingers "well... Let's just say every time we tried, it didn't work out " Ian sighed "your mom started to get stressed out and we both started to work a lot to forget about it... We didn't want to be home and see you because we felt we always let you down whenever we lost yet another baby, we knew that wasn't a good idea knowing you'd be lonely but we felt working hard and giving you everything you asked for would be better and when we noticed Ashley move in and you had someone to be with we totally pushed you away. We're so sorry" he explained ashamed, plastering a sad smile on

Chantel got pregnant with Chanel at a young age, should be 18. They both didn't know what they were doing but they did their best to raise their baby girl. She's now 32years old so it's not so weird to see her pregnant now, it's only weird to see the age difference between Chanel and the up coming baby

"but why didn't you just tell me?" Chanel whispered "I've been lonely at home, thinking you guys stopped loving me then here I find out you were doing this for me" She cries in her hands

"what? Chanel your mother and I will never stop loving you no matter what and never doubt that" Ian scolded

"thanks dad" she smiled and he stood to sit next to her so she was in between them "how long have you guys been.. trying?" she hesitantly asked. I cringed at her question and she quickly added "y-you don't have to answer if you don't want to"

They both chuckled at her flashed face while I watched the family interaction "the first time we tried was when you were five" Chantel rubbed her belly "I lost the baby on the 10th week. It was devastating" she blinked back tears "I couldn't tell you because you were too young to understand" she whipped stray tears

"she refused to try again until you turned 8, unfortunately we lost the baby at 16 weeks" Ian explained staring off into the distance "it was heart breaking losing yet another baby, so we started extra working only to get you to forget about any sibling. When you asked us when you're going to have a sibling we started implanting thoughts of you not being daddy's favorite or mommy's either so you could stop asking. It was depressing us and we felt we let you down. Childish?  Yeah we know, we weren't proud "

"I no longer wanted to try for any babies because I thought, hey maybe it's the universe telling us we can't have another child. After all they did declare us incompatible and said we might as well say I'm barren if we don't find other means after I lost the child when you were 8. We thought how did that make sense when we had a healthy little girl at home" Chantel continued where Ian left