Drug of choice - ashtray

IV

I woke up to my phone ringing.It was rue.
"Shit abbi where are you"rue asked
"I'm at fez's house"I said
"What do you want me to tell mom"rue asked
" I don't know be creative" I said
"Ok, bye"
"Oh.. bye then" I replied
I had expected her to apologise for ditching me.
Ash sat up.
"What time is it" he asked
"It's 8:30" I told him
"Then shut the fuck up" he said
Laying back down I realised my head was pounding.
"What happened last night can't happen again"ash said.
"I know"I said, feeling guilty
I climbed up to his end of the couch facing him.
"Yo why the fuck are you so close"he said
"Fez was right, you do care"I said
"No, I just don't want to have to deal with your junky ass all the time" he said
" mhm" I said knowing he was full of shit
" and stop looking at me your creeping me out"he said
I scoffed and faced away from him and fell back asleep.
When I woke up again it was to fez's voice.
"Yoooooooo" he said louder than necessary
I looked up at him and realised what he was talking about because at some point when we were sleeping ash had wrapped his arms around me. Fez must of thought we fell asleep like this last night.
He was now hysterically laughing
"Yo ash wake up dude" I shoved him
"What the fuck" he looked down at me
"This is why we where on opposite ends bro"ash said rubbing his eyes.
"Yea well I don't mind at least now I know you've got a soul"
" ha-ha" he said dryly
He still hadn't let go.
"Dude let go of me!" I said, me and fez still in hysterics.
"Shit!" He got up and stormed into his room slamming his door.
"Listen I got to go but uh you two be good" fez said, a knowing look on his face
"Fuck off" I scoffed
He left the house still laughing.
Ash came out his room after about 10 minutes in a new outfit. He threw my clothes at me
"You left your clothes on my floor" he said not looking at me
"Thanks"I said, it was felt awkward now fez left.
"I've got to go the shop, stay here wash your clothes and get a shower you look like shit" he said
I just looked at him. I didn't even respond to his snarky comment about my appearance. I just appreciated everything he had done for me in the last 12 hours.
"Thank you ash"I said
"Yeah yeah"he replied
"No really" I squeezed his arm
I wasn't sure if this was to far for ash. He doesn't trust people. I saw him everyday for months and i still feel we're strangers. I can tell there's a part of him that cares about me and I know I care about him. The nicer I am to him the less he wants to let his guard down, he gets reserved after he we bond because he's scared of the affection.I knew I was sabotaging myself but I needed him to know I was grateful.

"It was fez who brought you here not me"he said brushing my arm off like it was poison
"Yea but-"I started to say
"I've got to be at the shop"he interrupted
"Oh...bye"
And he walked out. I wish I never said anything .

Very short but I'm tired I'm gonna try and update twice a day if I can. But what do yall think so far. I feel like it's not been good so far because I'm loosely following the plot so there's not been much opportunity to write about ashtray. I also feel uncomfortable writing anything really sexual about ash because him and the actor who plays him are only 15 ans it's really weird. I'll still try and create tension and make it interesting without there actually being yk what. Anyway lmk what you think