restless sighs
weary eyes
sleepless nights
doubtful minds
countless signssmart quips
that turned to what ifs
second-guessing
and overthinking
this doesn't feel like livingearly morning
sun is burning
your half-assed texting
got me wondering
you're staying
then, you're leaving
God, i hate the risks i'm taking.laying confused
not sure what to choose
should i take things slow?
Or should I let you go?That afternoon I spent contemplating,
you spent with her, to complicate things.
I didn't even have to ask you to choose.
Remember, even if I am a lot to handle,
I am also a lot to lose.I win by losing you,
it hurt because it's supposed to.
Along with chaos you left me,
comes the blessing of clarity:
For the thrill of the tease
is never worth my internal peace.
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Everything I Never Had the Courage to Say
Poetrya compilation of personal poems written by yours truly. ✨ Part 2 in my Personal Poems Series ✨