A kiss to tell ( jenlisa ) (GIP)

Part 27

Two weeks later

J

The cool wind flows through my fingers as I rest my hand against the window. We've been off the highway for a little while now, still venturing into the unknown.

It's odd how the unfamiliar can offer so much comfort. How easy it is to leave everything behind and start a new life.

Countless times I've felt the fear of what could be waiting for us if we ever went back. And almost as if Lisa can read my mind, she asks me every time we stop somewhere new, "How about this place?"

"I can be a butcher anywhere. Or anything. We can be anything," she keeps telling me. "Just don't leave me." She says that a lot. As if I'd ever want to. One day, I think she'll know in every way that I'll never do that.

In every beat of my heart, I know I was supposed to run away with her. And she was supposed to run away with me.

We should have left when we were only children. We shouldn't have stayed in that place as long as we did. When the lights around you flicker and dim, it's a sign to run. To run far away and toward light and hope. It's an innate feeling I knew deep in my gut, but I swallowed it down and nearly let the darkness choke out what little life I had left in me.

It's only taken days of being away with Lisa at my side, holding my hand as we drive farther and farther away to know that's true.

I can smell the salty ocean air as the sun kisses my skin through the window. We're close to the ocean.

A line springs to mind and I jot it down in my notebook. It's half-full already, with ideas for a book so close to what I've been through. Some changes here and there because it's hard to write about the truth. It's hard to imagine what people would think of me if I told them my story. It's even harder for me to write it all down and to be okay with everything that happened. Because of what happened in my life, the things that were done to me and the things I did... well, it will never be okay, but maybe it would make a memorable tale.

"Do you want to stop here?" Lisa asks, pointing to the left at a sign for a burger place.

My shoulders lift easily in a contented shrug. With my cheek resting against the headrest, I ask her for the tenth time since we left, "Where do you think we're going?" I need answers to what we'll become. I know I love her and I only want to be with her, but the stirring in my stomach that this is too good to be true hasn't let up.

Lisa's hand wraps around mine as she pulls my knuckles to her lips to kiss them one by one. The car idles at the stop sign and she looks me deep in my eyes.

"We're going where we're supposed to go. Together." Her words are a balm to my broken soul. It's the only word that matters. It's the only word that's ever mattered. Together.

With tears pricking my eyes, the tears I wish would go away, even if they are from a happiness I never thought I'd feel, I whisper, "I love you."

She braces her hands on either side of my head, stealing a ravenous kiss from me, taking my pain away like she did so many years ago. But the pain now is minuscule and it's because of her. She's taken it all away. And I'll spend my life making sure I do the same for her.

With a bruising kiss, I can hardly breathe until she pulls away from me, letting the tip of her nose brush against mine. Her eyes are still closed, her hands still tangled in my hair as she tells me, "I've always loved you. And I'll never stop loving you. I'll always choose you."

        Years later

Lisa

About two weeks after we got in the car and sped away as fast as we could, I got a call from Mashiho's brother, Daniel. I didn't let her see as I broke down against the bathroom door of the motel we'd stayed in for the night. We'd move from one place to the next, constantly on the go until we found a spot on the West Coast, far away from Crescent Hills. A local bed and breakfast was looking to hire a butcher for their farm and also in need of a bookkeeper for the inn. Fate gave us our opportunity to stay, to find a new home, and we did. We grabbed it with both hands and didn't let go.

That night in the motel though, it almost didn't happen. The first few days we were on the road, everything changed with a single phone call. I almost got into the car and drove back to that hellhole when Daniel told me what happened. I would never have brought Jennie, but she wouldn't have let me leave her behind either.

The Talvery crew almost beat him to death the night we left. Mashiho nearly died for selling on the wrong turf. Daniel told me not to come back, that my name had been marked now, and I knew what that meant. If I went back, I was dead.

When I talked to Mashiho, I knew I'd made a mistake letting him stay. He had no one anymore, and everyone to provide for.

If I could go back, I would.

I'd never leave him behind.

It took over a decade before I dared show my face in that city again. Years of the phone calls coming less and less often. Years of building a life with the girl I always loved, while the memories of my past faded to bad dreams.

Life is a compromise. I left behind a friend, destined to stay, and be held captive to a city that had no mercy.

It would force him to become a brutal man I didn't recognize.

The Mashiho I abandoned in Crescent Hills, died that night I ran, and I'll never forgive myself for it.

                         

                           The End.