Yours (On Hold - Revamping)

Chapter 22 - Drunk (November 12, 2016)

Chapter 22 - Drunk

It didn't take a while bago tuluyang napuno ang venue. Red cup everywhere. Ang lakas din ng tugtog.

I really feel so uncomfortable having so many strangers around me. May mga ilang kaklase kami na nandoon pero 'yung iba, kahit binati ako noong pumasok sila, hindi ko talaga sila kilala. Piniga ko ang utak ko pero wala talaga.

"Sari! Drink! You need to drink!" Sigaw ni Sari trying to make sense through the blast of the large speakers.

Kinuha ko na lang ang red cup na binigay niya. I don't even know what's in it, but because the tension growing inside me, I felt like I had no choice. I know it's stupid, but it's the first time I have empathized with people resorting to alcohol.

"Sari, no..." Pigil sa'kin ni Oliver.

But his voice trailed off.

Alam ko namang mali sa'kin 'to, but with what happened with Olaf— nahalikan ko siya sa labi— kahit siya, sobrang awkward sa mga pangyayari.

"Huwag kang KJ, kuya Oliver ah. Kunin mo na rin 'to." Minelli also offered Oliver another red cup and oddly, tinanggap niya rin ito.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako titingin.

I can't believe my first kiss was taken just like that. Unceremoniously.

Parang baliw lang dahil sa totoo naman, alam ko na dati pa that I'm training to be a monk. Ang nakikita ko sa pagtanda ko— I'm just an old monk. Not the bald part, pero 'yung matandang may solitary life. Siguro parang hermit. Kung aabot ako sa ganoong edad ah.

I never really imagined any romantic plot points.

Okay, fine. Maybe I've included in my bucket list na ikasal ako, but that was yeaaaaaars back. Batang-bata pa ako 'nung nilagay ko 'yun. Even before I realized what I need to be to have a peaceful and safe life.

I just wanted to be here in this world, even briefly— but peaceful.

Kaya hindi ko rin alam why all of a sudden, I felt so weird having my first kiss like that. It's not that I didn't want to share it with Olaf. Pero bakit ganun?! Hindi ko talaga maintindihan.

"CR lang." Paalam ko kahit ang totoo, hindi naman ako magsi-CR. I just needed some fresh air kaya lumabas lang ako.

I sighed so deep nang makalabas ako.

Muntik na akong magulat nang may makasabay ako sa buntonghininga na 'yun.

"Ang lalim 'nun ah. Anong problema mo?"

It's Hunter.

Naalala ko na naman tuloy how he looked at me after Olaf and I locked lips.

Gusto kong sabihin na siya ang problema ko. But that's overlydramatic of me. Wala naman talaga akong problema sa kanya.

In fact, gusto ko lang naman mag-ingat si Minelli sa kanya.

Because ever since the day— 'yung araw na binigyan niya si Minelli ng Freesia, sobra na akong naguguluhan.

He told me he isn't the type who court girls. By that, I knew he meant he was all conquest and no serious relationships. Pero parang sa napapansin ko, he was so respectful to Minelli. Kapag nagpapakuwento nga ako, ang sabi ni Minnie, they haven't even kissed. They haven't even held hands.

Nagulat lang ako.

Kaya ba sinabi niya sa'kin that I shouldn't fall in love with him?

Not that I will, duh.

Not that I already am.

Paglingon ko sa kanya. I'm not sure why he is smiling like a crazy person.