Phir le aya dil

Part 1

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Italics : Flashbacks

In bold(brackets) : Translation of Hindi dialogues

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Woh jo ruki si chah baki hai...

Diwali

It's been an year since that fateful day when he kissed her...almost.

It's been an year since she came to his life...like a hurricane.

It's been an year since she started planting her love in his whole being...unknown to her.

It's been an year he was in love with her...madly, deeply, irrevocably.

It's been an year since she left him...to rot in hell.

It's been an year since he saw her...to his heart's content.

It's been an year...of his longings.

It's been an year...since he last touched her close to himself in the hollow of his arms.

He sometimes...no not sometimes, he often wondered..

What if he hadn't been stopped by that phone call by Aman?

What if he gave in to his desires that night?

Life would have been different.. Wouldn't it be?

NO!

Came an immediate shriek from his mind.Life wouldn't have been different because he already was blown away by the pull he felt towards her that he announced his marriage to Lavanya.

If he had actually kissed her then he would've hurt her even more to safe himself from her questions and his own desires.

Ego..His own ego

Has led him to where he was right now.Without her.

Tumhari Payal maire pass thi iss baat ka koi galat matlab mat nikal lena.Ye mat sochna k aik ameer admi tumhari payal ko seene se laga kar betha tha! Mujhe iss sab se koi farak nahi padhta..Doesn't mean a thing..(I had your anklet doesn't mean that you jump to unbelievable conclusions.Don't think that a rich man has kept your anklet close to his heart.All this doesn't mean anything to me.Anything at all!)

He has thrown the words at her even though the answers to them were already mocking him right on his face because yes it was true, he did kept her Payal because it mattered...She mattered.

But he was too proud to accept it that he let it go...let her go or rather say pushed her away.

Shayad tumhare liye hoga..Tumhe toh laga hoga tumhari toh zindagi ban gayi..Maire liye uss baat ki ya tumhari koi ehmiyat nahi hai.(Maybe it held importance in your life. You must have thought that now your life will be set. But for me, that incidence and YOU don't hold any importance.At all.)

Even after an year those words hurt him the way they did that day when he said them.Those tears in her eyes that formed due to his cutting words didn't let him sleep properly.They haunt him still...deeply, very densely.

If only he could turn back time and complete that kiss and don't hurt her after that with his words..If only...

If only...