Skin. Blade. Blood. (FINISHED)

Depression

' you can't sleep '

' thanks I didn't know '

' yeah, well I'm bored. You've got too much medicines and I don't feel ok.'

' Sorry, I won't take it anymore.'

' how come-... nevermind thanks'

'I just.... I don't know what to do...'

' I know.'

' Everything is getting worse and worse and I just don't know what to do, I wanna be with Kyle and I want to live my life happily with him... he's the one for me.... I love him.....'

' it's too sweet, I'll vomit '

' sorry it's just.... I really feel this way and... I don't know I just can't- I can't... I can't stop sobbing... I'm done..... tell me what to do please....'

' I can't.'

'WHY?! YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE TO SAY SOMETHING, NOW TELL, SAY SOMETHING!!!!'

. . .

' Why don't you say something.....'

' because I can't. You're on the lowest part, I can't make it worse and I can't say anything '

' Why.... I'm just lost... I'm so confused....'

'I can't say anything, I wish I could but it's just a mess what's inside here, your thoughts and feelings and everything going on, it's just a mess. Maybe I'm just done because of the medicines but I can't say anything to all this.'

'DAMNIT. DO SOMETHING AT LEAST!'

'as you wish some negative thoughts.'

-I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.-

-There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.-

-Whenever you read a cancer booklet or website or whatever, they always list depression among the side effects of cancer. But, in fact, depression is not a side effect of cancer. Depression is a side effect of dying.-

-That's the thing about depression:
A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end.-

-I can't eat and I can't sleep. I'm not doing well in terms of being a functional human, you know?-

-Do you not see how necessary a world of pains and troubles is to school an intelligence and make it a soul?-

-Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say "My tooth is aching" than to say "My heart is broken.-

-Noble deeds and hot baths are the best cures for depression-

-There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, 'There now, hang on, you'll get over it.' Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer.-

-That is all I want in life: for this pain to seem purposeful-

-I believe that words are strong, that they can overwhelm what we fear when fear seems more awful than life is good.-

-I'll never forget how the depression and loneliness felt good and bad at the same time. Still does.-

((Hey so I kinda fucked up with the parts and the number because I want to finish this one with another I'm writing so it's a quick depressed chapter, I'll write a normal part tomorrow or today.))