In Love With The Game (COMPLETED)

Chapter 26

#ILWTG26 Chapter 26

"I'm gonna pay you back," I told Jax as we waited to board.

"20% interest."

I frowned. "Ang usurious. Mas malala ka pa sa bangko," I told him but he just shrugged it off. We're off to Japan to unwind. One day, Jax surprised me in Pangasinan and told me that we're going to Japan. I asked him why kasi bakit sobrang biglaan? He just shrugged. He wouldn't tell me why. Basta daw pupunta kaming Japan. He arranged everything. Kasama din dapat namin si Cha, but for some reason, she ditched us. What's new? Lagi namang nawawala 'yun.

"Libre mo na lang? Ang laki kaya ng sweldo mo."

"May pinag-iipunan ako," he said.

"Ano? Sino? Wala ka namang girlfriend," I told him.

Hindi ko mabilang kung ilang beses kaming sinabihan ng mga kakilala namin na kaming dalawa na lang daw since pareho naman kaming iniwan. Kadiri. Parang kapatid ko na 'tong si Jax. At saka 'di ko talaga siya type. Masyado siyang tahimik para sa 'kin. Mapapanisan kami ng laway dalawa.

He rolled his eyes. "Shut up."

I grinned as I stretched my legs. It's nice of him to take me on a vacation. Ever since he left me, I felt like my life had gone downhill... with no sign of it going back on its regular track anytime soon.

I got so sad that I got into therapy. I just wanted to sleep at night—iyong normal na tulog... hindi iyong tulog dahil pagod na pagod na akong umiyak. But it took me a long time to be able to pull myself from the pit that I called my home.

Hanggang ngayon, pakiramdam ko ay nandun pa rin ako.

But I had to pretend that I'm okay.

I couldn't always be weak just because he left.

I was doing fine before he came into my life... I'll be okay again.

"Do you miss him?" Jax asked.

"Do you miss her?"

"Always," he said.

"Always," I replied. "But I hope that one day, I'd stop missing him."

"What if he returns?" he asked.

"If he returns, I need you to remind me of what he did to me. I need you to be a good friend."

Kumunot ang noo niya. "You don't even know why he left."

"He left. That's all I need to know."

He left when I needed him the most—iyon lang ang kailangan kong malaman.

Jax nodded, sensing that discussing this wasn't really good for me. The mere mention of his name was enough to bring tears into my eyes. I just really long for the day when I could hear his name and not feel like my heart was being pulled from my chest.

"We have an opening in the firm," Jax said. "You wanna work?"

"Tatanggapin ba ko? Pasang-awa lahat ng grades ko nung BAR."

He rolled his eyes at my pessimism. Hindi naman ako ganito dati. Ayokong maging ganito... but ever since he left, I kept on doubting every good thing in my life... I still didn't know why he left me... I kept on questioning everything... Pakiramdam ko mali... Pakiramdam ko mali lahat sa akin...

"Do you want the job? I'll stick out my neck for you," he told me.

I shrugged. I didn't know if I was ready for work. It's been a year since I got my title, but I still couldn't find it in me to work. Siguro kasi natatakot ako na bigla na lang akong umiyak kapag kausap ko iyong kliyente... kagaya nung naging pag-iyak ko nang malaman ko na nasa iisang room lang kami ni Yago nung unang linggo ng BAR month.