HE REMEMBERS.

01 : DOLLHOUSE

"i'm missing you,
when i say that i miss you
more i'm missing you."

- elise

(DOLLHOUSE)

i remember your beautiful brownie brown eyes when we first met at the playground. i was pouting because i thought no one wants to play with me, but then you came. you're holding your pinkie pink teddy bear whilst smiling at me.

you asked me,

"do you wanna play with me?"

i remember how i eagerly nodded my head, looking down because i was told not to look at anyone's eyes.

i was naïve, i wished i didn't look at your brown eyes.

that way i will never see

how broken you are,

when--

i woke up.

sitting up on my bed, i look around, still gasping for air. it's been exactly 10 years since i last saw her.

i can clearly remember how i begged, how desperate i am even if i was just nine years old back then.

i lean on the headboard. my eyes drifting.

god, i wish i could see her again.

i reach out for my wallet that is located on my bedside table. i slowly open it, letting the nausea takes over me again.

a picture can be seen.

a picture that i will never forget.

we're next to each other, with me holding my teddy bear and of course, her, fixing our dollhouse.

dollhouse.

i close my eyes.

"chae, what's that?" i ask pointing at the small pinkish house. you smile, but not looking at me.

"this is a dollhouse. mommy lend me this when i was just five years old!" you pause then grab some biscuits in your bag.

"i wanna live on a dollhouse you know that kookie?" you give me some biscuits.

our hands brushed. oh my, my heart mom.

five six seven eight heartbeats.

"yeah me too!" i stop.

should i say it?

"i'll be you h-husband one day!"

and i did.

"yes we will have so many babies!" i blush.

nine ten eleven twelve heartbeats mom.

i heard your giggles, i laugh along.

i slowly look up and see your eyes.

t-they're still beautiful.

our eyes met.

but your mood changes, your eyes widen. my heart falters.

oh, i know why.

"k-kookie--" you sob, "w-what's happening?!" you took a step back knocking our dollhouse down.

i stayed still, eyes still the same.

you run away, leaving me behind. "i'm--"

"sorry." i open my eyes.

god when did this hurt so much?

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HIIIII~