Secret Admire [Published under Viva Psicom]

I WON'T GIVE UP (Chapter 55)

Zenia's POV

Ang tagal nadin since nung last namin na pagkikita ni Justin. Mahirap. Sobrang hirap para sakin nito. Kamusta na kaya siya? Wala kaming communication.

Ang huli lang namin na paguusap is nung graduation.

Sabi niya babalik siya? Bakit.. bakit ang tagal?

Naaalala ko pa yung mga bagay na ginagawa namin..

Yung mga masasayang ginagawa namin.

The way he carry me when we were walking. I really feel safe when I'm with him. Yung tipong, pag may umaway sakin ipagtatanggol niya ako. Feel ko, walang pwedeng manakit sa akin pag nandiyan siya.

The way na sinusubuan niya ako while eating. I know, corny pero sobra kong chine-cherish yun.

The way he hold my hand. The way his hand fits mine. I'm holding my world, I'm holding him.

The way he nag about my sick. Knowing that he cares about me and he don't wanna lose me.

I miss those. :(

Especially the way he call me baby. </3

Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit minahal ko siya ng ganito eh? 

They said that you will only TRULY love a man if you have gave him everything. To be more specific, yung lahat lahat mo.

You can only love say that you truly love a man when you have surrendered the flag of the Philippines. Pero bakit ako? I didn't gave him my all but I can say that I love him so much.

Na hanggang ngayon, siya padin yung hinahanap ko. Even though, engaged na ako kay Keeyan. 

Yes, I am engaged with Keeyan. It wasn't because I want to but because I have to. First, yun yung gusto ng parents ko and I cannot just say no to them. Second..

Second..

Wala na akong balita kay Justin :(

Hindi ko na alam kung kamusta siya? Nakikibalita nalang ako kila Flip and Kriston. There are times na umuuwi DAW siya pero hindi nagpapakita sakin.

One time napaisip ako na, Maybe I should start dating someone else. That's why I accepted my parent's offer. PERO hanggang ngayon, I'm still crying myself to sleep.

"Hoy! Tulala ka nanaman jan!" sigaw sakin ni Ross.

Inseperable talaga kami nito ni Ross! By the thought of college na kami pero still, schoolmate padin kami. Magkaiba ngalang kami ng building dahil ako, sa tourism building at siya naman sa business ad.

"Haha. Vacant mo?" tanong ko.

"Oo! ano ba! Parang di mo naman alam! tulaley ka nanaman! Namimiss mo nanaman siya?"