Unexpected

25.

I waited in my mom's room with Luke until she woke up.

She was only unconscious for mabye 2 short minutes.

She groaned as she tried to sit up.

"Take it easy." Luke said softly as he supported her back.

She put her hand on the side of her head. "What happened?"

I handed her a glass of water with some aspirin. "You fainted. You need to rest." I said.

She layed her hand against my face. "I'm sorry, i shouldn't have done that." She whispered to me.

I softly grabbed her hand and removed it from my face. "It's already forgotten."

Luke asked her a few questions and checked her temperature before we left her alone to rest.

Luke turned to me when he had closed the door. "What's already forgotten?" He asked confused.

I shook my head. "Nothing."

He nodded hesitantly. He didn't accept my answer but he also knew that i wasn't going to give him another one.

"When does she have her next appointment with Michael?" I aksed changing the subject.

"I believe that it was tomorrow but it could also be the day after that."

I nodded and went back to my room.

Adam had texted me. I sighed and opened it.

Adam: are you alright? I feel like you're ignoring me.
Me: I'm not ignoring you, i just have a ton of school work that i have to finish before my mom kills me.

I definitely was trying to ignore Adam. I hadn't yet decided if he was a good or bad person.

I opened my textbook to actually try to do some school work but i was interrupted by Jack.

He entered my room with a sad look on his face.

I kneeled down infront of him."What's wrong buddy?" I asked him.

He rubbed his eyes. "Is mom okay?"

I sighed and lifted him into my bed were i sat down next to him. "Mom is just a little tired right now and needs to rest."

He stayed quiet.

"Mom is going to need to rest more as time passes. We need to be careful around her and not make her too tired." I said to him hoping that he would understand the situation.

"So no Disneyland?" He asked with a sad face.

I smiled at him. "Don't worry about that. You'll definitely you to Disneyland, with or without mom."

He smiled back. "Good."

I lifted him off my bed and pushed him towards the door. "Why don't you go do Luke's hair. I think that ponytails will look really pretty on him." I said to him with a smirk.

He nodded with a smile and ran out of my room.

I closed my textbook, i was fooling myself when i thought that i was exactly going to do the homework.

A few days later

My mom was getting tired very quickly and Michael had prescribed her a lot of medication. But not a single medication could stop her from being sick, all they could do was take her pain away.

After begging to mom i was allowed to stay home from school. I had gotten period and felt like absolute shit.

Normally i would've hated to stay home with my mom but was happy to spend time with her today. I had kinda accepted the fact that she won't be around for much longer. I mean i still hated her for making that decision but there was nothing that i could about it.

I was lying on the couch with a ton of blankets to keep my warm. My mom came downstairs and joined me on the couch.

"What are you watching?" She said softly.

"Avater the last airbender." I said deeply focused on the show.

"Mhh, looks like a children's show." She said after a few mintues.

"Doesn't mean it can't be fun." I said annoyed that she kept interrupting.

After the episode ended i turned to my mother. "What did Michael say?" I asked.

She sighed and looked at her hands. "He says that i have a little less than a year. He fears that at the rate i'm going I'll have to stay in bed all the time in a few months."

"Don't you regret it? Making the decision not to undergo treatment." I asked knowing that both us were too tired to start an argument. This would be the best time to ask that question.

She looked at me. "No, i don't. I'm happy with the life I've had with you, Jack and of course your father. It's crazy to say but this actually feels like my happy ending."

"I don't understand."

"It feels like this was supposed to happen. Like my life is at his highest point right now and it could only could downhill from here."

"So you refused treatment because you were afraid that if you did do it that you wouldn't be happy anymore? You wanted to remember your happy life that you lived instead of sleepless nights in the hospital?" I asked hoping that that was what she meant.

She nodded. "Yes, you understand me. I also don't see death as a bad thing. It's simply just a new start."

I cuddled closer to her and layed my head in her lap. I still didn't understand her decision.

"I'll miss you. I don't want you to leave yet." I said with tears in my eyes.

"I'll miss you too. But I'll always be here." She said as the placed her hand on my heart.

"What if that isn't enough?"

"Then you'll have four amazing people who care about you." She said as she stroked my hair.

I cried, i can't even remember the last time i had cried infornt of my mother but i absolutely didn't care anymore. I no longer cared about what my momther thought of me. I just wanted to spend as much as i could with her until i was to late.

"I only needed one." I said through my tears.

"I know, sweetie. I know." She said. I could hear that she was also crying.