The Merciless Stud (Hot Trans Series #3)

Chapter 3

That was probably one of my unforgettable moments in my life. Imagine the embarrassment I felt that day. Plus the annoying mockeries of Jade and Kobi. Well, atleast they were there to witness it. The first few days after that, they cannot really shut the fúck up. Kahit ako naman. Sobrang laking big deal noon sa akin at kahihiyan. I'm glad it was just the three of us. I can't imagine Dwayne witnessing that.

So to avoid that from happening again. I started taking hormonal pills. It's what they called- Hormonal replacement therapy. Because I really cannot take the fact that that Pakistani guy mistaken me for a top bisexual! I am not! I am a woman! Girlalu! Ganern!

"Mukha ka naman kasi talagang paminta! Ang pogi mo kaya!" Sabi ni Kobi habang pumipila kami sa isang drug store.

"Yucks! Trans ako, Kobi! I am into straight men! Hindi ako napatol sa kauri natin na nasa mga letra din ng LGBTQ+! Transgender straight woman!" Madiin kong sabi. Nilulukot niya ang maikli niyang bangs upang kumulot.

"I know! Kaya lang ang bobeta mo rin para mag upload ng basic pictures mo dun sa app! Eh di napagkamalan kang paminta! Tapos wala ka pang nilagay sa bio mo."

Tama naman siya dun. Pagka-uwi namin galing Ortigas ng araw na iyon ay chineck agad nila ang profile ko sa app. At napagtanto nilang kaya pala ako napagkamalan dahil iyong pictures ko na nilagay ay walang bakas ng pagiging trans. At wala ding bio for disclaimer.

"Kaya nga in-edit ko na, diba? At magho-hormones na ako!" Sabi ko.

"Kung hindi ka pa napagkamalan hindi ka pa magte-take!" Sabi ni Jade. Umismid na lamang ako at dumiretso na sa counter ng ako na ang susunod.

Kobi and Jade were already taking hormones for five months now. They encouraged me to take one as well but I was hesitant to do so. Dahil bukod sa hindi ako sigurado kung safe nga ba ay alam naman nila ang estado ko sa bahay. I am not very open with my father.

At ngayon, hindi lamang dahil sa napagkalaman ako kung hindi dahil napagtanto kong kailangan kong i-ugnay ang pisikal kong anyo sa nararamdaman kong pagkatao ko. And I am not doing this for anyone's validation, I am doing this for myself. For my gender euphoria. I am Apple Sandova, 18, a Trans Woman!

Lumipas ang dalawang buwan at nakikinita ko na ang epekto ng hormones sa katawan ko. I took an anti-androgen and an estrogen pills as my combo. I did not explore much to any other pills because I was instantly hiyang with my first combo. I also have read a lot of articles about hrt and the more I understand about it the more I gained respect for myself for being a trans. It will never be easy. No one can ever tell me how to live my life.

"Kumikinis na mukha mo." Puri ni Jade nang mag sleep over kaming tatlo sa bahay nina Kobi. We were watching a boy's love series. I shrugged.

"Hiyang ako sa progynova."

"Maintain mo lang iyan, sis." Sabi ni Kobi na naglilinis ng kuko. I nodded.

It's already summer and next school year we're going to be on the twelfth grade. I hope I would still be with Dwayne in some of my subjects. Kobi and Jade never met him formally. I have this feeling towards Dwayne, like I want to be protective of him. It's not like Kobi and Jade are harmful, but I know that they shouldn't be friends with someone as pure as Dwayne. Especially now that I knew of his boyfriend. Rocco del Francia. Just the name, I know if I would ever bring trouble to Dwayne, he would kill the shít out of me. I met him last year's intramurals. Kaya pala sinesekreto ng bakla dahil ganung kalibre pala ng lalaki ang jowa niya. Kung ako sakaniya, mang-iinggit talaga ako ng mga haliparot na babae at bakla sa school. Heh!

The physical changes in my body were very visible on my eight month. My boobs were cute like that of a teenage girl in puberty stage. My face has a feminine shape now. My arms were soft. I gained curves. And as days passed by, I feel like I am now in the right place. I feel more... Me.