Diana ( one direction fanfic)

Chapter 13

💜Diana's pov 💜
I woke up with two girls screaming at my face
" GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE " they screamed
" oh fuck off " I said pulling up the covers to my head
" just wake up, the boys have to go to the rehearsal " Lottie said
I groaned, and kicked the covers off of my body .
I showered , and dressed, I was wearing my mom jeans , with butterflies on it that I painted , and a jack wills sweatshirt that my brother gave to me because it didn't fit him anymore , and with my pair of white Nike Air Force .
I went downstairs , and saw the boys already there , i looked at Louis and Harry and smirked , I think it's the time to be a sassy bitch , I clean my throat and asked looking directly to louis and harry " so did you sleep well " I was trying to hide my smile, but i failed .
" yeah " all of them said
" good good " I said smirking
Johanna served us the breakfast, it was delicious.
We were going to the arena , I knew that Lou was already there .
My phone started ringing, it was Ivy , i pick up, while i was getting out of the car
" hi bestie " she said excited
" hi ...?" I said , but came out like a question
" so how have you been?"
" fine ..."
" ok so today the boys have a show right ?"
" yeah "
" where are you ?"
" I'm in the arena ..."
" no ... like staying ?the hotel?"
" oh no I'm not staying at the hotel , I'm staying at Louis ' house . "
" oh that's so cool " she said , but we stayed in a awkward silence
" but why do you want to know ?" I asked
" I was thinking of visiting you and your brother " she said , she always had a crush on my brother, even having a boyfriend .
" oh right , but like really?" I asked happy I mean she stills my friend
" yeah and also meet the boys specially the blonde one , he's hot , maybe I can have luck with him , maybe he fall in love with me , and imagine , like me having his babies , and marry him and all that stuff " she said excited, but with a tone of trying to annoying me, and she succeeded
when she said that I felt a wave of jealousy, I mean it's not like ....if I like him , and we are not together , and he can't come near me without me freaking out.... and he doesn't like me so ...
I stayed in silence , clenching my fist , and my teeth, I swear to god,she's my friend but she's getting on my nerves Jesus Christ
" are you okay ? Diana ?"
" you know what, I'm fine and I have to go bye " I said quickly, and annoyed
I hung up on her face , and started speeding my walk to the inside of the arena
I passed trough my brother and the boys quickly I was walking but I looked like the flash
" wow Diana are you okay ?" Harry said
" DONT FUCKING TALK TO ME " I said irritated
" Jesus ..." Louis said shocked
I continued walking until I reach the dressing room , i throw my purse aggressively to the couch , and sat down
" damn girl !!! Are you okay ?" Lou asked
" Jesus , I'm scared , dont beat the shit out of me , please " Lottie said sarcastically
" haha so funny " I said rolling my eyes
" now being really serious, what's wrong? " Lou asked
" nothing I'm fine , it's just ivy getting on my nerves " I said
" wait that it's not your friend that ...."
"Yes exactly, I don't know why is she being so insupportable to be honest " I said annoyed
"0h ...don't you want like , go outside catch some fresh air ?"Lou said
" yeah sure you're right " I said " I will try to be careful with the fans "
Outside were a crowd of fans , that screamed their lungs off , Jesus I don't know if my eardrums will survive, I went to the corner far away from the fans.
I was looking around when I saw a boy , a tall boy , no better, a really familiar boy , with brown hair , someone that I didn't want to see , he's back was facing my direction so he couldn't see me , and he looked confused , looking like he was looking for something or somebody.
I blinked, but nothing, he wasn't there , am I dreaming, or am I going crazy, insane ?
I just tried to shake the thoughts and the sight out of my mind .
But it was useless I start to feel my nerves screaming
But then I heard a voice behind me that I knew really well , and it wasn't good , I turn around, but nothing, I'm just going crazy that's it ....
" Diana , good to see you , little slut " the voice said once again
I turn around, and my eyes were wide open and looking to a pair of green eyes that I hated , I froze , I was starting to feel the sweat down my forehead and my hands .
In front of me was the last person that I wanted to see, Tyler.
I tried to run but my legs were stuck , like frozen, but i started to hear the fans screaming louder than ever , I turn around to see my brother there , but then I turn to see Tyler but he wasn't there , he ran away .
" Diana ? Are you ok ? " he said wiping a tear on my face, I didn't even notice that I was crying, basically my brother saved me , so I just jumped to his lap and sobbed, he took me inside , to the dressing room .
" Diana omg " Lou said worried
" wtf just happened to you are you ok ?" Lottie said
" just leave me alone , like , go do the boys hair and makeup , and leave me alone , I need this time alone to process what the hell just happened " I said crying, sitting on the couch with my knees on my chest
They nodded and went to do their work, Harry just hugged me and kissed the top of my head and went away .
I was alone with my thoughts, he knows where I am now , he knows everything, he knows with who I'm with .
Will he follow me to Louis house ? , what if he does the same that he did ?
I think that , the only way that he can't do anything is if i died , maybe will be the best for me , I will not suffer again , and he can't attack me again , it's the best option ......
"Diana , the boys are ready to go onstage, wanna see , backstage?" Lottie asked
I just Shrugged and followed them , I was freezing, in the back stage , I started to shake , while I tried to warm myself with my hands
" are you cold ?" Niall asked , I nodded
" here" he said giving me his jacket
" oh no , it's ok , and you ? , you're probably freezing too " I asked
" no it's ok , I will be moving around and jumping and all that stuff I'll probably get out of the stage sweating so ..." he said handing me his jacket
" thank you Niall " I said blushing and dressing his jacket , it's still warm of his body , and smelled so good , damn
Lottie and Lou just smirked and elbowed me playfully
" oh just fuck off " I said annoyed
I was falling for him and I didn't notice, just great .
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They made the fans go crazy , with their amazing show , I'm still wearing Niall's jacket , we are on our way home .
" Diana you don't look ok , since when you went outside" harry said
" yeah you look distant " zayn said
I just stayed in silence looking through the window
" Diana don't ignore us " harry said annoyed " DIANA MARIE STYLES "
I hate when someone yelled at me , I automatically start to tear up
"WHAATT? !!" I said crying
" oh damn " Louis said worried
" are you ok ?" Liam asked
" DO I LOOK LIKE IM OK ? " I snapped back
They shake their heads
" just leave me the fuck alone " I said wiping my tears
They just looked at each other shocked
We arrived at Louis' house ,and I gave Niall his jacket and went to the room that the Tomlinson sisters are sharing with me .
I was just waiting that all of them went downstairs
I heard the boys showering, i heard the water falling down .
After like 1 hour I didn't listen to anyone, so I made my way to the bathroom with my razor in my hand , and locked myself.
I looked at myself in the mirror, and started to hyperventilating.
I looked down to my hands and I saw the razor , should I ? , I think it's the best to me....he never will be able to hurt me again
With those thoughts I cut both of my wrists , but deeper than ever , I started to feel the burning sensation of the blood coming out, I started to look around and i started to see everything blurred, I was starting to get dizzy, and with that I felt the floor underneath my body.
Everything went black .