The music in my heart. (Lukaxmalereader)

Chapter 16: Pain

I can't with life anymore.

It's too much.

I miss my mum my dad my sister my life everything I can't do this anymore.

I clutch the knife in my hands my sleeve pulled up.

I place the blade in my flesh and slice and then again and again and again until my white carpet is red.

I pull the sleeve off my black hoodie down and leave the room.

Adrien is sitting there in the couch.

Be looks so happy.

Lucky him.

His dad is gone and that made him happy.

Mine is gone and I try and kill myself.

Nothings fair.

I refuse to tell Luka or Adrien about this.

They can't know.

I don't want to disappoint them.

Not anymore then I already do.

I didn't eat I just went to the house boat.

They are getting ready for the concert tonight.

I arrive Luka runs up.

"Y/N you made it"

"Yup" I said tiredly.

"You ok"

"Yup just tired"

"Well if you need to talk-

"Whatever"

I walked passed him and went to sit down and watch them practise.

I start day dreaming about a life without pain without loss. I want my mother back. I want my father back. I want my sister back. I want my happieness back.

I want the pain to end.

I need it to end.

I cannot do this anymore.

It hurts to much.

My eyes start to open and close.

My head is spinning.

I hear a yell as i collapse.

*time skip*

I wake up in a bed with tubes sticking into me.

Luka and Adrien are in the room. Adrien looking thouroghly shook while sat on a chair in the corner. Luka angry while pacing at the foot of the bed.

I become very aware of my lack of sleeves.

"Shit"

I say not meaning to speak.

Both boys heads turn to look at me.

"Y/N" Luka yells.

"Your awake" Adrien continues

Adrien darted across the room to hug me.

Luka just stared at me.

"Why didn't you tell us?" He questioned

"Luka leave it. He just woke up." Adrien responded.

"NO I WONT LEAVE IT I WANT TO KNOW WHY"

"GET OUT" Adrien yelled

"NO" Luka screamed

"Get out both of you." A nurse says entering.

I'm so happy I didn't have to say it.