if my tears are fake, erase my name.

dear ex lover

Hey, my dear ex lover,

Isn't that your old best friend?

You always denied it saying,

"He just worships me to no end."

Always discussing portfolios,

Intellectual conversations, I know,

That never felt like my home,

I say it was all fake, but who knows?

He calls you all the time,

He was the reason you never picked up,

He loves you, I cannot deny,

He even picked the same line of work.

He sought your help for

Everything and then some more,

You gave it too,

"But darling, I'm not a saint,"

"He just needs me right now, don't you know?"

Now I see kisses on cheeks,

But those aren't my lips,

And that's not your face,

We were nothing like this.

Flaunting it in the name of love,

I know he met her online,

I was there when you helped him out,

Trying to woo her on my time.

Don't you remember we had fun too?

Used to sneak all the time just to see you,

I broke rules but you broke promises,

You're shit talking him, and I'm loving it.

I posted you maybe once or twice,

He does it with her all the time,

Especially when she's in his arms,

You used to say you found it

Having some kind of charm.

So hey, dear ex lover,

I don't know why I'm writing you this,

But I saw online he was kissing her,

And that's a feeling I did kind of miss.

Remember when we first did that?

You almost cried and I went back,

My friends could tell from my face,

I was making myself pretty for your gaze.

My parents fell in love with you,

They didn't know I was in love too,

They'll never know about it now,

They'll never know why I'm hollow inside and out.

So my dear ex lover,

Thank you for the memories,

But when you see him kissing her,

I really hope you think of me.

Oh, dear ex lover,

You really were my best friend,

I wish it could remain that way,

But it's so sad that we can't.

She's probably his best friend,

I know you can't say that about me,

Not that you really say anything.

We were strangers, friends, lovers, exes,

That's so many tropes wrapped up in one, babe,

They met online, you helped him win her,

Wish somebody saved us too from the end of my world.

"Saw them and thought of us."