dear beomgyu,

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dear beomgyu,

2014 was literally a blur for our friendship. we barely talked. and i can sense your distant and dry replies. what happened beomgyu?

i tried to understand but there was no explanation.

one time, when i tried to call you, it took 6 calls until you answered me. your voice sounded okay, just like the usual. we talked about some stuffs, we greeted each other, made a short catch up. but then you told me that you were busy practicing and that you needed to hung up.

it always became like that. maybe i should stop being too clingy. my heart always hurt at the thought.

i was officially in high school and i wanted to share my experiences at my new school but you always seem to be busy and uninterested.

daniel has been the only one who was there to listen to my sentiments and rants about everything. i became distant to you, beomgyu. and i don't know whose fault is it. is it mine? or is it yours?

daniel was always the one whom i shared my stories with, told my rants, and even my dad jokes which i used to say to you. daniel and i were always together that's why we became a lot closer. he was my dance buddy.

we spent our time together practicing and doing a lot of dance covers. i sometimes think what if it was you who's dancing with me. i know it was so unfair for daniel but he never really thought of it.

daniel sometimes acts weird ever since i told him my rants about a particular guy whom i am developing foreign feeling, which is you. he never knew that it was you who i always talk about but he always shrug whenever i mention that "guy". almost everyday, i literally talked to him about you that maybe he was pissed because of it. everything was all about you, beomgyu. even with another guy, i always talk about you. there's no way i can't get you out of my mind. this is crazy.