Would it be gay if...?/Jilix

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In the few days that Jisung and Felix have been back together, they have been very clingy. It mostly Jisung was being clingy with Felix....but Felix wasn't mad about it but at the same time  he was also pretty self cautious  about it

Jisung was being so publicly affectionate because one,  he wanted to. And two, he was trying to make Felix more comfortable with being himself so he could gain back the confidence he had before his mom took it away (confidence he had before his mom said mean things to him?does this make sense?)

Felix was fine being clingy when they were at Jisung's house by themselves but Jisung wanted him to be comfortable with himself and being with Jisung everywhere. And right now Felix still cared too much about other peoples thoughts

Ignoring that they had only gotten back together a few days ago, Felix could see what Jisung was trying to do. He really appreciated it, he wanted to be more confident in himself...for Jisung more than his own self but that just made him more determined to do so. He wanted Jisung to be happy too. Through all of Jisung's effort, Felix was trying his best to push away the negative thoughts that he still had because of his mom

Now it was Friday morning at school and both of their birthdays were next week yet still neither of them had any idea what they were going to do but their friends seemed to care more about it then they did

"So....your birthdays" Chan said trying to bring up the topic that needed to be talked about

"Are you going to celebrate them together?" Jeongin asked

"Of course we are. I don't care what we do though" Felix said

"My only request is for there to be cheesecake" Jisung shrugged

"That's all you guys have? All you want is cheesecake?" Changbin asked and they both nodded

"You guys are so boring" Hyunjin sighed

"They don't have to be in charge of their own party, neither of them are going to say anything they want unless they know for sure the other one wants it too" Minho explained

"Gross" Seungmin commented

"As if you aren't the same way with Jeongin" Jisung said causing Seungmin to immediately shut up

"We are planning your birthday party now" Jeongin decided

"I honestly thought that Chan and Changbin were  planning mine already " Felix said looking at his two best friends

"We were but our plan that we did have failed" Chan responded

"Don't ask, you will only be disappointed" Changbin explained, noticing Felix's curios facial expression

"Okay anyways, let's all meet after school to plan I guess" Hyunjin said and everyone nodded their heads "not you two" he said pointing to Jisung and Felix "you two aren't being helpful so now you're getting a surprise party"

Soon after, the bell rang and they all spilt up to go to their classes

"What do you think they are going to plan?" Felix asked, swinging his and Jisung's arms lightly as they walked to class

"I have no idea but it will be fun, my two favorite things will be there so I don't really care about whatever else happens"

"What are your favorite things?"

"You and cheesecake"

"I'm tied with a food?" Felix asked as he faked being offended

"No, you are more important" Jisung said as he gave Felix a quick kiss on the cheek causing him to smile

~time skip to after school~

Felix went to Jisung's locker like he usually does after school, he ran up to him in the empty hallway, gave him a quick hug  then grabbed his hand as they walked out of the school

"Can we hang out? My house is lonely" Felix asked

"Of course we can. My mom is home but I don't think she will ca-" Jisung stopped himself mid-sentence and pouted, feeling Felix pulled  his tiny hand away from Jisung's

Jisung looked at Felix to see him visibly tense then looked around to see Paul with his friends, more importantly, Paul smirking. Jisung assumed it was because of the effect that he saw he had on Felix

"Lix, he's only looking at you like that because he's jealous. Which he should be because he's never going to get someone as amazing as you" Jisung said trying to cheer him up

"I don't think he's jealous Sungie, he was looking at us like we disgust him...it's okay though, we can just cuddle when we get to your house" Felix explained not looking up from the ground

Jisung knew that people were going to give them gross looks eventually but Paul wasn't one of those people. He was questioning if Felix completely forgot that he literally tried to kiss him but he definitely wasn't to bring that up again. Although he did want to do something to wipe the stupid smirk off of Paul's face

"Do you want proof that he's jealous?" Jisung asked and Felix looked at him, extremely confused

"How would you prove tha-" Jisung cut him off by grabbing both of his hands to make Felix face him. Then he leaned in and kissed Felix on the lips gently

Felix was extremely tense and confused for the few seconds of the kiss but he quickly let the negative thoughts flow out of his brain and let his feelings take over as he loosened up and kissed Jisung back

a kiss couldn't get rid of every single bad thought though, maybe this time but it didn't mean it would always work 

Jisung smiled as he pulled away "look Lix" he said as he pointed over to Paul who now looked annoyed and was walking away "He's just mad that he can't have someone as amazing as you in his life" Jisung said and Felix smiled at him

"Thank you...but that was also kind of scary and stressful, let's go to your house so we can cuddle" Felix said as he and Jisung walked to Jisung's house peacefully

This is just progressively getting worse