Would it be gay if...?/Jilix

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After the whole Paul situation, Jisung and Felix both went to find their other friends who were still waiting for them outside

At first, they were all annoyed from having to wait for so long but then they say Felix and started asking what happened. Jisung told them all that Felix would explain later, hoping that he actually would

Chan, Minho, and Felix all went to get everything Felix packed from his house, while the rest of them went to go get everything from Jisung's house

Most of the things they ordered the previous day were already there and installed thanks to Jisung's mom being there in the morning so people could come to install things

Most of their furniture was there now too but it was all over the place and not organized yet

Their apartment was a one-bedroom, one-bathroom apartment but all of the rooms were pretty big

They all started moving things around as Jisung and Felix moved their boxed into their room so that they could unpack all of that stuff later

After a few hours of unpacking things in the main areas that were given to them mainly by Felix's dad they were all laying around in the living room. Everything was done except for Jisung and Felix's room so Jisung ordered food for everyone

Jisung had been worried about Felix the whole time they were unpacking stuff, he was sure that some of his other friends picked up on it too but none of them said anything

Eventually, everyone left after they ate food. Chan and Changbin told Felix to text them later since they could very obviously tell that something was wrong with him

He nodded then quickly remembered that he was supposed to text Hyunae so he said thank you and asked her what happened which was answered with her saying that they were going to call both of them to the office on Monday

"Lix" Jisung said as he came back into the living room from the kitchen after the last of their friends left and he got onto the couch and hugged Felix

"Hi" Felix said as he hugged Jisung back and buried his face into Jisung's neck

"Can you tell me what happened now? You barely talked when everyone was here and you've been spacing out a lot" Jisung asked

"I'm sorry for bringing down the mood, today should be happy. It's not like it's anything that hasn't happened before, I'm just being overdramatic"

"Don't be sorry for anything, that's not why I was asking. I'm just concerned, and what do you mean it's happened before? What happened?" Jisung questioned

"Paul just... Paul was being himself again"

"That's not descriptive enough" Jisung said as he played with Felix's hair

Felix sighed before he explained to Jisung everything that happened after school

"You aren't being overdramatic" Jisung said quietly once Felix finished explaining

"I am though, it's not like it hasn't happened before. I should just be used to it by now"

"Don't say stuff like that! That's not something that you are supposed to get used too. He will get In trouble at school, you won't have to deal with anything like that ever again. Your mom is gone and Paul will be gone too" Jisung explained

"More bad things are gonna keep happening though. I know you're going to tell me that they aren't and that everything will be fine but I'm constantly scared that It's not going to be. I always mess things up for myself"

"You never messed anything up. You were just blinded by some toxic people and made some choices that were not the smartest but you can move past it"

"I know but I just- I don't even know how to describe it any more. I feel like I want to believe everything you are telling me and I want to believe that everything will be fine but I can't and I don't know why...I make no sense" Felix sighed again

"I think that maybe it's hard to explain to me because I've never dealt with anything like that before..." Jisung trailed off

"That's a good thing. I would rather you not understand any of it. I'll get over it though, it's probably just because of what happened today at school"

"Don't just push it off like that. If it's bothering you then we should try to fix it"

"How?" Felix asked as he moved away slightly so he could see Jisung's face

"What if you met some other people who could relate more?" Jisung asked quietly

"But I like talking to you. You might not be able to understand everything but I would rather talk to you" Felic explained

"You can always still talk to me Lix, you can also have a few more people to talk to though. You don't have to but I just don't want you to feel that way"

"I'll go" Felix replied and Jisung looked at him surprised

"Really?"

"Yeah... I can try it. I don't want to feel this way either and if you think that it will help me then I'll do it because I trust you" Felix explained and Jisung smiled softly at him and gently kissed the top of his head

"It's getting late... we should go to our room" Jisung said as he emphasized the word 'our' with a smile on his face

"Okay" Felix responded with a small smile on his face as they both walked into their room together

Their room was still kind of a mess but they at least had the bed set up so they laid down next to each other and Jisung quickly pulled Felix close to him and kissed his face

"I know you have a lot on your mind but what are your thoughts on the apartment?" Jisung asked

"I love it"

"Me too... hey, we can share chapstick without my mom questioning us now" Jisung said

"You're so weird" Felix said, his cheeks tinted pink. Not that Jisung would know that because of how dark it was in the room

Felix felt Jisung suddenly put his hand on the side of his face and he felt Jisung's thumb touch his lip

"I think your lips are chapped"

"Why can't you just ask for a kiss normally dummy?" Felix asked as he laughed a bit

"Hey! I'm older than you. That's disrespectful"

"Goodnight Sungie" Felix said as he rolled his eyes and tried to turn away from Jisung but Jisung stopped him

"Nooo, I'm sorry. Kisses? Please?"

"Fi-" Felix started to answer but before he could finish he felt Jisung's lips against his as he kissed back

After a few seconds, they pulled away and even though they couldn't see each other's faces because of the darkness they could tell that the other was smiling

Moments like these made Felix forget about all of his worried and scared thoughts. He wished that it could last forever. But maybe one day it would

Oof, I'm sorry 😞