Narrator's pov
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As humans, we tend to react a certain way to questions were uncomfortable with or things we avoid, especially confrontation
The second we hear the question, the panic fills our veins and issues a deep push to our heart as if the blood had stopped pumping for a second so that our brains could register a decision in those few milli seconds
A decision on whether we lie, spin the topic to another direction or give in and answer that question
Our feet taps against the floor without even realizing it. We tap our fingers against a flat surface or we look away, knowing our eyes told the truth our lips couldn't say
So when Autumn glanced away from the brunette in front of her, Kate knew she was uncomfortable with the topic and questioned
A few seconds had passed since Kate had asked the question about her ex bestfriend but Autumn hadn't responded as yet. Perhaps her brain was fighting an internal battle of whether she could give in and speak or if she should change the topic. But deep down, the raven hair girl knew she had to talk about it sooner or later
We can't avoid our problems for the rest of our life. We can't push it to the back of our minds and expect to forget about it. Because the fact is, when we push those problems away, it changes us without us even realizing it
We smile less, our energy becomes drained as days or months go by. Sometimes we might not see these changes quickly but after a certain amount of time, it sneaks up on us.
Especially when we're alone with our thoughts, that's when it's the most dangerous.
Autumn's fingers tapped against the table surface even faster and her feet dusted the area below her toes with her rapid stomps. Her eyes avoiding the coffee brown orbs that seemed to control her everytime she was near
Panic shot through Kate's body as she quickly reached her hand out and placed it on top of Autumn's tapping fingers. The raven hair girl immediately stopped all movements and glanced at their hands on top of each other before bringing her eyes to Kate's
"Hey it's okay. You don't have to say anything, we can just talk about something else" Kate stated as a small smile rose to her lips
Normally Autumn would be pissed off at the smile of someone. Sometimes she had no idea why people smiled, the world is a cruel place and cared not for the people unless they were apart of the one percent
But when this girl smiled, her heart leaped in her chest and pounded like the rain of a storm on the side of a house. It was only then did her own smile came across her lips.
The brunette always had a way of making her melt in her socks or in this case heels. She felt safe in the company of a pushy, loud mouth petite girl that always got on her nerves. She felt safe.
"No. It's time I talked about it either way. Besides, you're supposed to know me more than anyone right?" Autumn mumbled
Kate bit her lip nervously before nodding and settling herself back into her chair, awaiting the story from the raven hair girl
"When I was fifteen, I met a girl. Her name's Brooke, I'm sure you've heard of her. Magazines kept taking pictures of us together but they all assumed we were bestfriends until a month ago when she had an interview and told everyone that we were together for years" Autumn said
"I had no idea she was your girlfriend" Kate mumbled
"She wanted to keep things private since her manager wanted her image to be a preppy pop singer for the teenage girls of the generation" Autumn rolled her eyes
