kalopsia

|| kalopsia ||

keep poisoning me against myself
but why can't i open my eyes?
keep pushing me mercilessly
the moment i touch your shore
like a desperate blue wave.

spit your grief in my blank paper
it's filled with the devil's words
crumple me like i'm nothing
an abyss of a wasted love
don't you want to take a dive?

can't help myself but fall
into the void of gloom
tangled up with you
under the bright blood moon
i hold your scarred heart
say that i'm a work of art
but you rip me to shreds
i let myself tear apart.

the definition of cruelty
the illusion of beauty
you are.

take my broken strings
control me
i'm your pretty little puppet
use me like your drug
intoxicate me
i'll still run back to you
i'll still say i love you.

every time you leave
i break like a porcelain doll
every time you stay
i screech like a mad chaos.

nights when we're high
dawns when we're miles apart
still yearn for your love
but it disappears
into the grey clouds.

i close my eyes
when i'm with you
i'm alright
or am not.

break me and use me
hate me or love me
bruised and exploited
agitated and never loved.

i still let myself drown
in the sea of sweet poison
i fall back into the ache
pure salt on my wounds
can't live with or without
crawling through hell
won't you open your eyes?
won't you let me open my eyes?

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everyone be expecting the title poem to be pretty and gorgeous, and here i am with a dose of toxic love enjoy! mwahaha *insert a bunch of ugly evil laughs*