kalopsia

one foot in the grave

the aureate pages of my diary
and the dust that collected in between
my mind fogs up
as i try to recall the last time
but something's changed
something's gone wrong
betwixt these walls.

white as the last drop of snow
delicate as the hands that slipped from mine
the petals of gardenia
stuck between the broken piano tiles
i heave a sigh
as i gaze out the window
i crave to run away.

the willow tree on the top of the hill
sways to the beat of the wind
the wind i could never feel on my face anymore.

the kids are excited
they jump around in brand-new dresses
but i can't hear their laughter.

been falling too deep
i forgot how to stand
been straying too far into the woods
i lost my way back
been grieving too much
i forgot what it feels like to smile
been crying too many tears
i can't recall the taste of anything else.

pack my bags, collect my emotions
but they're scattered everywhere
like the pieces of the chandelier
that fell down last may
lock the doors, put on my shoes
but it's the dead of the night
and i'm all alone
with no other door to knock on.

the brooding moorland weeps
and the willow tree stops swaying
and the kids run back home as
it rains down on me
but i stand right there
my head in a haze
one foot in the grave.

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after more than six months of my longest writer's block, i'm here again, everyone! this might not be the best thing i've written, but i consider it a stepping stone to breaking through the block. i'm happy that i finally got to write at least a few words, that's what matters the most, right? i hope you guys are doing okay and have a great day/night ahead! i'll be active on wattpad from hereon so, i'll be right here whenever you want to talk! love y'all! <3