Fast jets scream in with cannon and bomb, breaking up the enemy attack
Blast reverberates through my entire being, rendering me deaf and dazed
Beneath my body armour a film of mud and dust lies gritty against my skin
An explosion rips through the compound, followed by shouts of 'man down'I have been a spectator in this gallery of hellish images, now my work begins
I believe the first man is dead, rolling him to check brings a low animalistic groan
With help from two of his mates, we drag him into cover
I start to check him over when I am told of another casualty'That's four this morning.' 'How many more?'
'Are we going to get out of this alive?' 'Will I be next?'
Unanswered questions left hanging, pushed to the back of the mind
Get on with the job at handThe village is shrouded in smoke and fire as the company fights for its life
Surrounded by comrades in this maelstrom of battle, I am alone
Sheltering in the lee of a compound wall, as if from a might storm
Ignoring the chaos, I kneel between the two living corpses and start my battle for their livesAshen faced and pallid, if I don't act fast he will bleed out
Reaching into my map pocket, I pull out an emergency care bandage
Sweating, shaky hands fumble and slip on the glossy plastic wrapper
Gripping it with my teeth, I rip it open, and the grey and white roll is freePressing the white pad against the groin and wrapping it tight, I stem the flow of blood
Binding his legs with cas straps and a 'jimpy' sling, all seems good, radial pulse present
'No morphine, boss', he tells me
I turn to the other man
He is getting worse
Gasping for breath with a look of terror in his eyesRemoving his body armour shows the peppering where a thousand minute metal shards have ripped through flesh and sinew, crushing lung, lacerating vessels
The chest seal will not stick, it slides on a body slick with sweat and blood
I inwardly curse the maker of a device not fit for purpose
Go for a chest drain or leave it?Sitting him upright brings an improvement - leave it for later - dress his other wounds
Unwell, but not getting worse, I am winning my battle - I pause and observe the otherAn overheated barrel brings a machine gun to a stop
"Who needs a piss?", the gunner asks
Three men stand over the barrel, the yellow streams sizzle on the hot metal and vaporise
The stench of urine mingled with hot oil and gun smoke; a sharp tang in the back of the throat
The gun roars back into life to cover our extraction, carrying stretchers out under fireTwo live casualties are at strapped to the CSM's quad bike and taken to meet the helicopter
I have earned my pay and return to my role as spectator, the amateur playing soldier
Once contact is broken I trudge back to camp at the rear of the platoon
A film of the action plays in my head, I hope I have done enoughIn camp, a debrief, rifle cleaned, med kit replenished and scoff
'Minimise' in force - can't phone home; even if I could, what would I say?
Sleep comes hard, tears are shed, images of the wounded on my mind
A prayer for the boys on patrol tomorrow and the ones that are left behindLee on Solent
2011
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Danger Close
PoetryA short collection of modern war poetry 1995 - 2014 Highly personal, this short anthology draws on the writer's experiences as a soldier and officer of the British Army in conflict zones in Europe, Africa, Iraq and Afghanistan. Although, the major...