Let me Love you

Part 21.

Tharn's POV.

I don't know how many days has it been or what day is it today. I don't even know when was the last time I had a good night sleep because it seems I'm all awake, however, I can still clearly remember Type's crying face and that he said he doesn't want to see me. Hell, he even want to break our bond. I will die, Type. I will die.

I stopped coming to the office, I'm just lucky enough that my employees and friends are there to take my place, to act in behalf of me because I'm a mess, I can't even think straight. Sarawat also updates me about Type, he knows he does it for my sake but I feel so bland. I want to see Type, I want to be with him even if he doesn't want me.

I threw the bottle of vodka to the already broken television. "AAARGGHH!" I screamed. I'm going nuts, All I do is drink, eat some instant food and drink again. I haven't even change my clothes for how many days now.

"Tharn! I told you to stop drinking!" Win grabbed the bottle of vodka on my other hand and put it on the table, he immediately caught me when I was about to fall. "What are you doing to yourself? This isn't you!"

"I don't care! Give me that!" I hustled him to get the bottle from the table even though I can't stand straight anymore. Win drags me to my room and throws me in the bathroom.

"Type doesn't want me anymore... he doesn't love me.." I said, half laughing while crying. I must be crazy, Win is right, this isn't me and I never acted this way before.

"Type do love you! Talk to him once more, you're his mate, he will forgive you!" Win said, I know that already but do I still have the right? I want him back, I really want him back but I guess he don't need me anymore.

"I- how am I gonna make him to forgive me? I'm loosing it." I'm crying again. Who would have thought that the great Tharn Kirigun is crying over a guy like this?

"Fix yourself, man. Type won't like it if you behave like that" Win said. He left me to take a bath but he left completely I murmured to myself.

"He won't even like me no matter what I look. He thinks of me as a murderer." I closed my eyes, I knew he stopped for a bit but he didn't comment anything and he just left the bathroom after few seconds. I got no choice but to take a bath, I'm so exhausted with all the crying and those alcohol that didn't seem to make me drunk.

"Fvck it Tharn! I told you to take a bath not to sleep in the bathtub! What if you drown?" Win scolded me, I didn't even realized that I fell asleep.

"I'm going to sleep. Leave me" I said after changing, I don't have any strength now. I just want to drown myself, to forget everything but I know life won't work that way and it won't just revolve around me.

"I'm cleaning your house. It's not for human to live" Win said, not listening to what I said. I shut my eyes and force myself to sleep.

"So why are you here?" I asked my friends when they dragged me to the office the next day. Even Pharm is present inside my office.

"Well to celebrate you getting out of your house! You didn't even care about the company." Sarawat said, he talks as if he didn't know the reason.

"He didn't even bathe! He looked like an abandoned puppy!" Win added, rolling his eyes.

"Wolf you mean?" Dean corrected and Win agreed and they laughed. I'm not liking them a bit now.

"You're all here." I rebuke.

"Oh wow! I didn't know" Win's sarcastic remarks. "Anyway, we have a candidate Personal Assistant for you and we wish you to interview him"

"Why me? Pharm can do that" I said, well since I'm here, I might just work my ass off and immersed myself in working so I can temporarily forget the things that's killing me inside.

"Well... It's your personal assistant not mine." Pharm said and they seem sketchy. "Come in" My eyes widened, he is the applicant?

"T-Type?" I uttered and he smiled sweetly.

"Yes sir? Am I hired?" He raised a brow. I can't believe it, he is in front of me. "Just to let you know I haven't forgiven you yet but I'm giving you a chance." He said and smiled.

I immediately stand up and leap to where he is standing to hug him. I am so happy.

"You don't have to work for me because you partly own this company too. So you can work for yourself" I said to him and catch his lips. How miss him and his scent, his body warmth calmed me down.

"Ahemm! Just incase you two forgot, we're also here?" Sarawat fake a cough.

"Well, you're not welcome here anymore." I said to them while Type is still in my arms. I'm afraid to let him go because if I do, he may no longer coming back to me again.

"Ah.. ah.. we'll leave you two!" Win said dragging his ass off to leave Tharn's office and get back to his own work. The rest of the boys left too since it is still a working hour.

I dived into his neck. I need to fill myself of Type's scent. I know I have to and I need it.

"I can't believe you're back to me baby" I said, my face is still buried on his neck. He is caressing my back, how I miss this. I will never get tired of his scent.

"Like I told you, I haven't forgiven you yet but I'm giving you a chance." He said, I just nod my head in response. "And! I heard that you weren't eating enough! Look at you, what happened to you? You're so thin!" He scolded, like hell he doesn't know why.

"Because..." I tried to reason out but he is quick.

"You know, you shouldn't neglect yourself whatever happens."

"Like you're different. You got thinner too." I said to him and he just chuckled. I missed his laugh too. I miss his embrace. "I love you Type"

He moved my head so I can face him. "I love you too Tharn. I can't be away from you, I might be so angry at you, despise you but not to be away from you. I can't take it, I'm always longing for your scent, your warmth. I wanna hear your voice too but I have to stop myself, I have to think about everything and no matter what I do, I can't bring my mother's life back. I don't want to waste mine too, I'll just make the cause of her death to be tied to me so he won't get away and do bad things."

"I'm sorry baby but you know? It wasn't my intention to kill you all. Your father is so cunning since then. We were just starting and he tries to bring us down, he betrayed us that's why my parents are overseas because of your father. He might be acting like a good father to you but he isn't with other people. I know my reason isn't enough to justify what I did but I really regretted what happened." I honestly conveyed to him. He smiled to me.

"Just give me time but I'm slowly taking it all. You'll stay by my side, right?" I'm speechless.

"Yes baby." I said, He pulled my head and placed his forehead on me and smiled.

"I love you" Type said before he latched our lips.

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// Happy ending it is 😁