written on these walls||larry

~21~

"Okay, what do you wanna talk about" Louis sighed as he set in the bed, Harry watching him  from the door with his arms crossed.

"I uhm..." he froze. He didn't think Louis would agree, so he didn't really know what he wanted to talk about. Actually, he just wanted to apologize.

"I am so sorry Louis, what I said was completely out of context and you didn't deserve it" Harry said softly as he slowly walked to the bed to sit next to Louis.

"But you do think that don't you" Louis asked, well more like said. " you think my life is fucked up and sometimes you wish you weren't in it" Louis continued, playing with his rings.

Harry didn't answer, which confirmed what Louis thought. Slowly, he sighed and got up from the bed, but he felt a hand grabbing his wrist.

"I do think your life is fucked up, and I do think your father is a coward but, for what matters, so is mine" Harry chuckled, standing to face Louis. "And yeah, maybe I'm luckier, but... Louis you're not alone"

"And I don't wanna be"Louis looked back at him."but sometimes you have to stop being selfish and think about the others for a second" he looked down to take Harry's hand in his, before looking up again. "Harry... I'm going down and, I don't want to drag you with me" he caressed softly Harry's cheek with his thumb.

"Louis what are you talking about I- you are not going down and even if you are, I am not going anywhere, I am not letting you go" Harry said as he tried to grab Louis' other hand, but he was quick to pull them both away.

"I know, I am" Louis said with shining eyes. He wanted to cry, and he knew this was gonna hurt a lot, but he cared about Harry to much.

"So just like that? You throw our relationship away because you are scared?" Harry spat, getting angry.

"I'm not" Louis mumbled.

"Yes you are! Ti stai comportando come un bambino perché non riesci a vederlo!" Harry snapped. Louis didn't dare to look at him, but Harry knew he didn't understand.

"You're acting like a fucking child, and you don't even fucking realize it" Harry translated. "Would you just look at me for a second!"

When Louis didn't look up, he got closer to him, slowly but angrily, and whispered. "You know what, you are being selfish" and with that, he walked away leaving Louis at the verge of tears.

Honestly, he wanted to yell Harry to wait, that he didn't mean it, that he didn't want to loose him, but he knew this was for the best, for both of them. Or at least he hoped, because if not then he just did the biggest mistake of his life. But for one time, he wanted to do the right thing, he wanted to stop think for himself.

~*~

After two hours, Harry was crying silently in his room. After a day, he would get out of his bed just when he needed to eat. After 4 days, he broke his phone by throwing it against the wall. Finally, after a week, Liam, Niall and Zayn decided to see what was going on.

"Harry? Are you awake?" He heard a soft nock in the door.

"No" he answered.

"Cmon open up please" Niall asked. He was his best friend, so of course he would be there. Harry also knew Liam would be there too, because he was the one who always fixed the fights in their group. He didn't expect to see Zayn as soon as he saw the black haired boy opening the door.

"Oh Harry" Niall said sitting on the bed next to his best friend. He had red puffy eyes for all on the crying, curls everywhere, with food and tissues all around the room.

"What happened?" He asked gently, stroking Harry's red cheeks.

"He- he broke up with me Niall" Harry broke down in tears and the blonde lad didn't hesitate to hug the poor boy as tight as he could. He let him sob in his shoulder for a while, letting the other two boys sit in the bed too after closing the door.

"I'm sc- scared" he sobbed again, burying his face in Niall's neck deeper.

"Why are you scared love?" Liam asked softly.

"Because he- he said he's going down and I'm- I'm scared che lui faccia qualcosa di stupido e- e mi manca tanto" Harry cried even thought he knew the others couldn't understand.

"Well Harry he's- he's worried about you- he's sad too" Zayn spoke up, not knowing what else to say.

Harry looked up at him with te most heartbreaking- hopeful look they had ever seen. "Re-really?" He asked.

"Of course he is Harry! What about you come to school tomorrow?" Niall asked hopefully. "you missed a week haz" he continued, but soon realized the mistake he had done when Harry started sobbing even harder than before.

"He always ca-called me like that" he cried.

"I know love I know" Niall comforted him. "Do you want me to sleep here tonight? And maybe tomorrow we can go to school together?" He asked looking down at his best friend.

Harry hesitate for a while, but then nodded, making everyone sighing in relief. They needed to help him, they just didn't know how yet.

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Thoughts?:)
I just finished a fic where Niall died, I miss him now:(