BloodLust

0.3 | Alone (or not?)

Brews Ailousos description: chocolate brown fur, with a darker brown tail, forearms, back legs, and ears. With Snow White neck fluffy and a rhombus shape in the center of her chest that was the same dark brown as her tail, and 2 stripes that went down her check from her eyes to her jaw on both sides of her face, with chocolate cream eyes
Crimsons Ailousos description: crimson colored fur with reddish cream eyes, and deeper shades of red going down her forearms, legs, and tail with 2 deeper patches around both her eyes and ears as well as on her lip

‼️ Warming mentions of self harm, a eating disorder, and blood. I will say when the parts that will have this in it start and stop ‼️

Brew POV
Trigger warning ⚠️
I sat on my bed in my room, bored out of my fucking mind

My arms hurt to, i fell on the road and bruised my arm, where my scars were

I'm lucky a certain one didn't open, it was a scar that i gave my self after having a mental break down

Probably the worst one i ever had

Maple was next to me, she was brushing my arm slightly whimpering and licking it

I don't want to do this to my self but its the only way i feel pretty, also starving my self was one of my favorites

It was finales week for our 8th grade year, i was stressed and so was crimson

Crimson was smart but she always wanted to do more then she was capable of, trying to improve her 'bad grades' when she was a straight A and B student

I was a B or C student, only sometimes getting As

In truth crimson wanted to talk more lately, Alex had the night shift at her job, so when crimson was up Alex was asleep

But i wanted to be alone, i haven't eaten in 24 hours only a bottle of water

I felt like shit and looked like shit

I avoided walking maple so I wouldn't see crimson, I didn't want her to see me like this

All this shit started in 6th after i started caring about my looks and body

Then it was not eating, but after a day or 2 i would eat and hate my self for it

I would stick my fingers down my throat and throw up, if that didn't help i cut

I got up from my bed maple just behind me, i picked up my phone and saw some messages from crimson

Crimy <3

Hey brewery, can we meet?
Sent 2:30 pm

Hellooooo?
Sent 2:50 pm

Brewwwww, come on i wanna talk 👉👈
Sent 3:00 pm

Shit, did i do something?
Sent: 3:30 pm

Please text me just to tell me your ok, that's all i need <3
Sent 3:35 pm

I inhaled deeply, i love how much she cares

But sometimes i wonder when she will be done with me and leave me in the dirt

She's probably so sick of how pathetic you are, HA, you have to starve your self to feel good

No one would ever want someone as pathetic or ugly as you

Trigger warning over ⚠️

I shook my head to get those thoughts out of my head

Maybe i need some air i thought quickly texting crimson a "I'm ok just tired" before putting maple on her leash and started down the road