Under the surface | Ashtray X Fem

Part 23

⚠️TW: rape, abuse⚠️

JAYDENS POV

"Come on Maddy! Pick up!"

I yell at my phone as I throw it in a puddle of water on the floor

"Fuck!"

I yell, picking it up quickly. After my huge blow up at Fez's I didn't know what to do, were to go. At first I was gonna go see Rue, but then I remembered I ran out of the NA meetings so she's probably angry at me. Then I was also going to ask Maddy if I could stay over, but then after calling her and getting declined 7 times I remembered she is spending the night with Nate.

So, I called Mia

"Hello?"

Mia says through the phone

"Hey, um, can I come over?"

I ask, still sniffing from crying

"Yeah, of course! I'll text you my address"

She says. Then before I knew it I was walking to Mia's house. Once I got there I went straight to the front door and knocked on it like Mia told me to.

"Hello?"

I hear a boy open the door. Once I saw his pink crop top and black mini Skirt, I knew exactly who it was

"Dylan!?"

I say, putting my arms out

"Jay!"

He says hugging me

"Baby your all wet"

He says laughing

"No way! I didn't know!"

I say sarcastically

"Come in"

He says as I walk through the door and he closes it behind me

"I've missed you Jay"

He says, hugging me again

"Yeah, I missed you too Dylan"

Dylan is Mia's older brother. Me, Mia and Dylan used to do everything together at summer camp. And when we went to parties Dylan would always look after me and Mia. He was kinda like the older sibling. But then summer camp was over and I never saw either of them again.

Dylan has a special place in my heart I guess you could say. Because this one time...

(FLASH BACK IS IN THIS FONT)

"Jayden right?"

The guy who was 6 years older than me asked.

"Yep"

I say, taking my 12th shot of the night. I was at a party full of people I didn't know. I went with Dylan but he was upstairs fucking his 'best friend' Lucas

"Do you wanna like, fuck me?"

The guy asked

"Um, no actually sorry"

I say, starting to walk away. Creep.

"Are you sure"

He says, grabbing my shoulder and pulling me towards him

"Yeah"

I say, trying to walk away

"Come with me bitch"

He says, grabbing my hand and pulling me up the stairs through the crowd of teenagers.

"No! Don't! Stop!"

I yell as he throws me down on the bed and starts unbuckling his belt

"No! No! Stop!"

I scream as he comes over to me and starts taking my shorts off.

"Stop!"

Before I could scream anything else, he put his hand over my mouth and stoped me from making any noice.

I manage to pull my arm out from under him and slap him across the face just before he fully took my shorts off

"Oh! Your gonna wish you didn't do that whore!"

The guy yells, then punches me right in the eye. Everything went dark. And when I woke up I saw Dylan and Lucas next to me. They explained how they stoped the guy from raping me.

I will never be able to thank them enough for that.

(FLASHBACK OVER)

"Well, I actually came to see Mia. Is she in her room?"

I ask

"Yep, just down the hall to the right"

"Thanks"

I say starting to walk down the hall. Once I get to Mia's bedroom I knock on the door

"Hey! Can I come in?"

I say from outside the door

"Yeah"

I hear Mia say from inside her bedroom. I walk in and see her standing there.

"Hey"

I say, walking over and hugging her

"Hey, what's up?"

She asks, hugging me back

"I um, i, just really needed to see you"

I say. She smiles then takes my hand and walks me over to the bed. We both sit down at the end of her bed and stay silent for a second

"Im sorry for um,  you know walking out the other day"

Mia says, looking everywhere around the room except my eyes. I could tell she was getting nervous

"Hey"

I say, putting my hand on her hand

"It's fine, I promise"

I say smiling. She smiles back at me

"So, why did you want to come over?"

She asks me

"We'll, I um, I think I just lost 1 of my best friends, and my boyfriend"

I see Mia look down as I say boyfriend. My voice starts to get shaky, I have cried so much today I didn't think I could possibly cry anymore. But I guess I was wrong

"All because I wanted fucking drugs"

I say, falling into Mia's arms and crying

"I'm so fucking stupid"

I say, burying my face into her

"No, your not stupid Jay"

She says, running her hands through my hair to calm me down. It did work a little bit

"Mia?"

I say, moving myself out of her arms and just resting my head on her shoulder

"Yeah?"

She asks, putting her arm around my shoulder

"I love you"

I say, smiling at her through my tears

"I love you too Jay"

She says, righting her grip on me and smiling. I started to brake down again. We just sat there for a couple minutes. Mia rubbing my back to calm me down as much as she could.  But all I could think about is Ashtray and Fez.

I fucked up big time

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Authors note: thanks for reading Yall!!! Ilysm!!
I will try post another part today but idk

Please leave any suggestions in the comments! Cus I really don't know where y'all want me to go with this lmao❤️❤️