01 : i cant anymore

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"FUCK YOU YOU WHORE "
I woke up to screaming again.

I threw her blankets off and went into the bathroom.

This has been going on since i was 5.

Since my dads an alcoholic, my mother lets herself get abused by dad.

moms no better.
She abuses me to get everything out of her soul.

I started to brush my teeth and wash my face.

I got ready for the day , put on an outfit and facetimed gigi.

"Hey babe"
She said

"Hey girl.
Are you doing anything today ?"

"No actually "

"You want to go to the library together?"

"Hell yeah!
I'ii pick u up in an hour
After we can pick cam up, i'ii text her rn"

"Alr"

"Are you in ur room ?"

"Yeah why?"

"Is ur door locked?"

"Yeah ofc" i showed her my door that had almost 7 locks on it.

"Thank god"

Me,cam and gigi have been bestfriends since kindergarden.
They were the only ones i told about my family,and they know everything about me.
We have been so close since forever and no one could seperate us.
This bond was crazy,and i was so thankful for it.
When we graduated, we promised eachother to stay close after graduating too.

You would ask me,why am i still living in this house ?

I havent been ready to move yet.

Im not mentally stable to have that weigth on my shoulder about moving.
One day,very soon.

"Okay babe im gonna go get ready bye "

"Byee i'ii see you in an hourr"

I saw the groupchat messages.

Girlies

Bookgirly📚 - nae

Stupidblonde🥿 - cam
Emogirl 🎧
- gigi

Emogirl🎧
Hey my loves

Stupidblonde🥿
Hey girls whats up?

Emogirl🎧
You wanna come w us to the library ?

Stupidblonde🥿
Ofcc

Emogirl🎧
Kay i'ii pick yall up in an hour

Bookgirl📚
Slay tbh.

Emogirl🎧
We love our bookworm fr

Bookgirl📚
Shut up

Bookgirl📚
Ily too

Stupidblonde🥿
Love yall bye

Emogirl🎧
Byee

Bookgirl📚
Byeee

I loved these girls.
I never had that many friends,
I was definently the quiet girl in school.
My anxiety has grown worse and worse over the school years.
Im actually not quiet at all, but only these two knew how outgoing i actually was.
I only let myself free when i was w people that i trusted and knew very close.

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