Heartbreaker

I wasn't a bitch once... (11)

I am so so so sorry guys!! My exams and revision have been mental, forgive me??? Enjoy the part and I'll try and update again soon!!

Aiden

I glance slyly in the mirror, she looks so fragile and weak, the bitchy, snarky cow I met in the hallway gone and been replaced with this scared, weak and broken angel sat next to me.

Every atom in my body is telling me to reach over and take her small frame in my arms, to nuzzle my nose in her wavy soft hair and whisper encouraging words in her ear. But I don't, if I want this to work I need to keep my face blank and control myself. 

Today could be the day we take our first steps together, I do as I'm told as she quietly gives me directions and when I park she sits and stares, eyes glistening dangerously and while she gazes at what she classes as "beautiful", the stretch of sea that is clear and pure, I stare at her, real beauty. 

Her lashes brush against her blushed cheeks every time she blinks,  her eyes resembling  pools of melted chocolate, her skin healthy, the only thing that breaks her away from being perfect is a tiny scar that rests in her hairline above her ear. Her velvet voice breaks me out of my reverie, 

"When I first moved here I would come here every single day and talk to mum," she trails off, leaving my imagination run wild. I stare at her, waiting impatiently. 

"What happened?" I ask softly after it becomes blatant that she isn't going to answer,

"She died in England and then I and dad moved away..."

"Because of um Kevin?" She flinches at the name, shivers and closes her eyes.

"Yes." I breathe out, relieved that I might actually get somewhere. 

"Tell me, Layla, you can trust me." At the this her eyes open and flick to mine, blue to brown, 

"I can't trust anybody Aiden, that's the problem, I like you I really do but every time I look at you I don't see a happy future I see pain and heartbreak, not just for me but for you too. I don't know how to care for someone, I can't even say the L word without wanting to vomit. I'm disgusting, dirty whore and you shouldn't like me Aiden. You really shouldn't. There are things that you should know that I don't think I can tell you." I watch her as she speaks, i can see the rage and self-loathing filling up inside her, it hurts to watch but this is what I want.

"That's why you always look the best and act the bitchiest? Because you think you can't do any better? Because you're scared to let anyone in? What did he do Layla? "

"I can't.."

"Yes you can! Fight for heavens sake, fight!" 

"HE GROOMED ME, MADE ME FEEL SO FUCKING SPECIAL, TOUCHED ME BUT TOLD ME IT WAS OK AND FOR YEARS I THOUGHT IT WAS, I FELT OK, I EVEN FUCKING ENJOYED IT BECAUSE I'M DISGUSTING!! HORRIBLE DIRTY COW THAT'S ME! IT WASN'T UNTIL SECONDARY SCHOOL THAT I REALIZED IT WAS WRONG, THAT'S MY AUNTIES HUSBAND AND ITS GROSS, that's when it got bad, he'd hit me and threatened my mum, saying he'd kill her if I told anyone, told me he did it because he "loved" me, told me that if i told they'd hate me because I liked it." halfway through her voice turns into a desperate howl and the tears start falling, she heaves and hugs herself turning away.

"I killed my mum because I told, I couldn't just fucking save her I was a selfish cow that wanted bad things to stop and it cost her life." 

"Layla, it's not your fault what he did was disgusting and people like that are evil and clever and don't deserve to be on this earth, especially not with angels like you, what you felt wasn't love or even liking it, it was a horrible act of mind control and it certainly isn't your fault that your mother was killed, you shouldn't have to go through something like that by yourself, you did the right thing and that may have saved someone else from being his victim!" I reach over and lift her to my lap and nuzzle deep in her hair, breathing in her vanillary scent, tears gather in my eyes at her pain. It hurts to know that shes been carrying this guilt inside her for so long.

"He's coming, Aiden, he's being released tomorrow and he'll find me, no matter what he'll find me, we didn't tell him we moved but he'll find out. He swore I'd always be his, even if that means hunting me down."

"Ill protect baby, always." Rage boils in my chest, she's only just opened up! Hell no is anybody taking her now! And here dad? Does he know everything?

"Does your dad know?" I ask softly,

"Yes, I told them both everything and told them to keep it quiet but he was angry and went to confront Kevin, the next night my mum was dead, Kevin had killed her but there was no proof. He only got sent to prison for a few years on account of rape." She's violently shaking and I feel her fear, if he's got away with murder once, whats stopping him from doing it again?