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Taymor

"I wanna wear a beautiful pink dress in my casket. I wanna stand out. I want it to be bright colored. I don't want a dark sappy funeral. I want everyone to be happy and think happy. I was a happy person so why not?" Miya said while writing her funeral plans on a piece of paper

"Miya please stop talking about this. I've been crying enough these past days. I don't even wanna think about you leaving me too"I said laying my head in her lap moving her paper

"Okay fine. We can talk about my funeral later" she said

I felt my tears coming again. I took deep short breaths to try to keep them from coming down.

"Calm down Tay, I know you love him a lot" Miya said as she started to play with my hair to try to calm me. It normally does

"H-he could've said something b-back I p-poured my h-heart o-out" I sobbed like a teenaged girl

"I'm sure he'll come around. Be patient love"

"B-But h-he blocked my n-number"

"How do you know that?"

"Cause none of my messages go through and then when i call it rings once and goes to voicemail. I downloaded an app and called, he answered immediately. I didn't say anything though just hung up" I said sounding like a stalker

"Look at me Taymor"

I turned my head looking up at her with my head still laying on her lap

"Hm" I whined

"You need rest. You've been here crying to me for 2 days. Not saying you're annoying me or anything but it's not healthy for you. You have to get on with your life. Wait for him to come around again"

"You've been missing work. And you have to go get Mira from my mom tomorrow morning. You gotta get it together. You don't want Mira seeing you down like this" she said

I sighed lifting my head up and wiping my tears "your right"

"So I want you to leave now. Go home. Shower. Eat a nice meal. And get some rest. No crying. And I'll call and check on you later okay?"

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Nick

"Show me attention" I whined sitting on Dimitri's lap trying to grab his controller

He just snatched it away and leaned around me still playing the game

"Dimitri You've been on this damn game for 2 days. You won't give me any attention. You can't even stop to dick me down for a good 30 minutes. This game is not that important" I said pouting

"But it is though. I paid $70 for this shit so imma play my 70 work. Now get off my lap I'm trynna win this game" he said then pushed me off his lap

I caught myself and stood up irritated.

"I'll just get some dick from elsewhere" I said walking out his living room to go retrieve my things

I went upstairs to his room and put on my shoes and grabbed my bag and walked back downstairs grabbing my coat out the coat closet and putting it on.

"I hope that nigga give you something!" He yelled from the living room

"Fuck you!" I said and walked out the house slamming the door behind me

I sighed realizing I didn't drive over here. I'll be damned if I ask this nigga for a ride home though. Walking it is.

I threw my hood on and started walking. This is gon be one hell of a walk.

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I'd been walking for 15 minutes and was still no where near my apartment. My feet hurt so bad. I'm so outta shape. This is ridiculous.

My momma might have not told me much but that bitch did tell me never let a mf bring me to they house if I have my own car. Cause there's a guarantee shit will go left and I'll end up trying to get home with no ride to get there.

I sat on a bench to give my feet some rest. I sat there for a minute, as I went to get up a black truck pulled up. They windows rolled down revealing Taymor. I stared at him.

"Look I'm not trynna bother you I swear. You just look like you might need a ride. It's gonna rain soon and I don't want you to be stuck in it. I know you hate to get wet. I could give you a ride, I won't even talk to you just give me the directions and that'll be all" he said

"Fine" I said getting up and getting in his tuck.

I put on my seatbelt and instantly looked out the window.

"You just keep going straight for 5 blocks then make a left" I said

The ride was awkward. I'm not used to him not speaking to me. Even though I don't want him to speak to me. I kinda do though. I caught myself sneaking a few glances at his face.

He removed his hood and I caught a last glance. This one a little longer than the rest. He looked extremely exhausted. His skin didn't have that natural milk chocolate glow to it. His eyes were red and extremely puffy and he had dried up tears on his face plus fresh ones. His eyes were glossy. He had been crying and he still is.

My baby looked really awful. I can't see him like this and not say something.

"Pull over" I said

He didn't say anything just did it with no hesitation.

I took off my seatbelt and crawled over into his lap straddling him staring him in the face.

"W-What are you doing?" He said looking away from me wiping his eyes

"Why are you crying" I said grabbing his face making him look at me

"It's nothing" he said looking away again

"Don't lie to me McIntyre" I said making him look at me again

He sighed and his eyes glossed over again.

"I just can't be without you Nicholas"

"But I don't deserve you. I don't blame you for hating me. I didn't understand why I was feeling the way I was towards you. So I just kept constantly hurting you to try to idk make the shit go away. I don't know"

"There's no excuse for what I did. I can't try to justify it. I just gotta live with the fact that I've lost you. But I deserve it. " he said tears just nonstop coming down his face

"I don't hate you Tay. And stop calling me Nicholas. It's Mir remember? I've forgiven you awhile ago for what you did, I already told you that. I thought not having you back in my life was a good idea. I wanted to just focus on me and this guy I've been talking to"

"Truth is. Since I attempted to block you out the other day. I've been miserable. Just like I was those years that went by when I thought I'd never see you again"

"There must be some kind of destiny for us. Cause here we are. I don't wanna hear about the past of us anymore. Just the future. So let's start over"

"Hey, I'm Nicholas Nahmir Simmons, you can call me Mir, nice to meet you" I said holding my hand out

He stared at my hand for a minute then a smile came across his face. Then he grabbed it and shook it.

"I'm Taymor McIntyre, you can call me Tay, nice to meet you as well" He said

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Would've been updated but Wattpad deleted half of my part. 🤧 I had to rewrite it.

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