Stuck With The Cassidy Boys

Chapter 29

I sat down on my bed and Avery sat next to me, I wasn't scared, just annoyed that I got caught incase he tries it take my stash, its not like I was addicted, I just used it to calm down after a particularly anxious or stressful day and I rarely smoked a whole one alone, I usually had company, Avery or Chris

Sebastian knows I smoke weed and why I have it, he doesn't like it but trust Avery to take care of me and he knows the shit I've been through so he Let's it slide, pretty generous of him if you ask me although when he found out he went off on one, that's the only big argument we've ever had.

"What the hell where you thinking?!" Sawyer asks staring intensely at me

"Just relieving some stress" I answered casually

"Don't worry man, she knows her limits and I have been looking after her for ages" Avery admits

"Wait your saying you smoke weed regularly?" He asks in disbelief ,taking a seat on my desk chair

I nod

"It help with my anxiety and to deal with my stress"

Oh yeah and it also help take away the pain of being physically an mentally abused by your own farther for over a year as well as dealing with the pain of losing you mother and dealing with depression but you don't know that....is what I wanted to scream but I had to remain calm

"This is so stupid Emerson, can't you see?" He growls but I don't see what right he has to be mad

"It's not stupid it's a way of coping and I'm not going to change that Sawyer so either accept it or butt out" I scolded and he took a step back

"Avery please go home" Sawyer said without looking at him, he gave me a quick kiss on the forehead before hastily leaving the room, a few seconds later I heard the front door shut

"You need to stop!" Sawyer says sternly but I shake my head

"Sawyer please just leave it alone, it's not up to you" I say not wanting to fight with him

"I can't leave it alone, I worry about you Emerson, I can't watch you make this mistake" he says and I stand up in front of him

"It isn't a mistake, and you don't need to worry Sawyer I know what I'm doing" he took a step closer to me

"I will always worry about you, you are so vulnerable"

"I appreciate it so if you want to help just make Sure I don't smoke alone that way nothing can go wrong" that's exactly what Avery does, except he might join in every now and again ;)

"I never want to leave your side" he says softly

"I'll be ok"

"I care about you, you know, very much"

I nod "I know I care about you too"

"Yeah but if anything happened to you my heart would break" he said looking into my eyes

"What do you mean? You've only known me a few weeks"

"Yeah but you have made a huge impact on me and now I can't imagine my life without you" he says taking my hands in his

"I'm sorry, ok. But I've had it rough and I know you might not approve but it's my only way to get away, I'm sorry if I scared you"

He pulled me into a hug "I just don't want to loose you, you know I love you" he said and I froze, there it is again, that four letter word love

He loves me, as in like a sister or a best friend or he loves me romantically, but that's stupid he's 22 he would never date a 17 year old train wreck