Reclaim The Game (COMPLETED)

Chapter 20

#RTG20 Chapter 20

"I'm sorry," the OB said after she explained to us what happened to the baby. Naka-tingin lang ako kay Sean habang pinapaliwanag niya iyong nangyari. I watched every shift of expression that crossed his face... But that look of betrayal? I could never forget that... Na para bang ginusto ko iyong nangyari... Na para bang sinadya ko... Kahit alam ko sa sarili ko na ginawa ko naman lahat ng sa tingin ko tama... Inalagaan ko naman 'yung sarili ko... Sinunod ko lahat ng bilin sa akin... The other things were out of my control...

But I guess like the case, this was my fault, too. Because at the end of the day, it was still my body... It was still me who was carrying the baby that I lost...

Tahimik lang kaming dalawa nang iwan kami ng doktor. Naka-tingin lang ako sa kanya.

"Sean—"

"Are you hungry? I'll just buy food," sabi niya bago mabilis na tumayo at lumabas. Naiwan ako na naka-tanga roon—hindi alam ang gagawin.

I stared at the ceiling above me.

I quietly let the tears fall.

Gusto kong tawagan iyong pamilya ko... I wanted to be comforted... But I felt like everyone would be disappointed at me for what happened... Na alam ko naman na buntis ako pero tinuloy ko pa rin... Pero nagsabi naman ako... Nag-ingat naman ako... Pero baka nga kasalanan ko talaga...

I just quietly cried, hoping that the tears would stop from falling bago bumalik si Sean. Nang maka-rinig ako ng katok at mabilis kong pinunasan ang luha ko.

"Lyana," said Sancho when he opened the door.

I smiled weakly when I saw him. "Hey..." I said. "Nandito ka pa rin?" tanong ko dahil hindi ko na alam kung ano'ng oras na. All I knew was that he was the one who drove me here... And then I didn't see him again when I was taken in the operating room.

"How are you feeling?" he asked.

Mabilis na tumulo na naman 'yung luha ko.

Why was I being this sensitive?

He just asked how I was...

Pero iyon 'yung gusto kong marinig kay Sean... Na tanungin niya naman sana ako kung paano ako... Hindi iyong puro iyong baby iyong naisip niya... Paano naman ako? Asawa pa rin naman niya ako... Hindi ko naman gusto 'yung nangyari... Wala namang may gusto...

"I'll be okay," I replied with a weak smile.

I knew I'd be okay... This pain... This was just temporary... I'd get over this... I just didn't know if Sean could get over this... Dahil sa paraan pa lang ng pagtingin niya sa 'kin, pakiramdam ko ay hinding-hindi niya 'to malilimutan...

"Ano'ng nangyari sa office?" tanong ko.

"Really? Office?"

"Yeah... They must've freaked out," I said with a small smile on my face. I didn't want to talk about the baby. I didn't want to talk about Sean. I just wanted my mind to focus elsewhere. Mababaliw ako kakaisip sa kung ano ang mangyayari kapag bumalik na si Sean. Kung kakausapin niya ba ako... Kung ano ang sasabihin niya... O kung ano iyong hindi niya sasabihin...

Sancho sat on the sofa. "They're talking about how Atty. Divina's the reason why that happened."

My eyes widened. "Really?"

"Yeah... So expect him to be really nice to you pagbalik mo."

"Bakit siya iyong inisip na dahilan?" tanong ko.