My Savior

Feeling feelings

Elijah's POV

I came home from work a bit tired but nothing I couldn't bear, nobody was home so I guess Diana went somewhere or she's at Jacob's house, I walked up to my bedroom and just layed there for a bit before I go take a shower, I smiled at the thought of Diana and Sharon, they became inseparable in just this few months they know each other, I sighed and got up talking off all my work clothes, I walked into the bathroom, I stood in front of the big mirror, I definitely need a hair cut very soon, my mind drifted to Diana, I'm not gonna lie, she's always one of the people I think about everyday, I know how I feel about her, I know I'm attracted to her in every kind if way, the first time I saw her it was as if God brought an angel from heaven to this earth, the strength she carries is so strong, I know for a fact that what she has done and would do many women could never do that, she's just so unique, I see how broken she is though  but even that doesn't stop her from what she wants, she can be stubborn some times but it's just how she is or how they made her become, whatever they did to her made my blood boil, I wish I know her ex boyfriend, I would have gone and payed him a little visit and say two or three words to her parents that apparantly don't appreciated her or never did appreciate her, just because your daughter has a baby, your grandchild for that matter in her early twenties shouldn't be taken to the extent of wanting her to disappear from your life, that is just heartless and selfish, as if the reputation that they have was going to make them special or something, I sighed and shook my head then I entered the shower taking my time and relax.

I walked down stair and saw the kitchen lights on, maybe it was her, I kept walk but stopped the moment I saw her in her short robe, you see this is exactly the times I would love to ripe that robe off her body, kiss her senseless and fuck her brains out while I hear her scream my name out to the the whole world to hear who she belongs to, I groaned lowly taking her all in, the things I would do to her body if she was mine, I looked down and saw that I was already hard and if I keep looking at her it would only worsen my little problem now, I silently took a step back to recover from my state and make sure  my dick print wouldn't show, I then walked back  to kitchen and acted as if nothing happened and I just was surprised she was there,
"oh diana I thought you were already sleeping " i said walking closer to giving  her a puzzled look, I saw the way she looked at me with desire in her eyes, how she hungrily looked at me I wanted to smirk but I suppressed it I know she's shy so I acted as if I was clueless as to why she kept staring at me,
"Are you ok?" I asked her still walking closer to her like a predator calculating his prey next move, she squirmed in her place, I knew I saw getting the reaction I wanted from her, I now know for sure that she's attracted to me more that I thought, I've never even touched her and I'm affecting her this much, I mentally smirked, beign proud of it.

We started eating and I asked her how was her day and what she said next made me so angry, I was trying to suppress it as much as possible, I'm trying not to scare her away with my anger, but I just couldn't help it, this 3 past months and even before then we became very close, not to talk about Amelia, I want her to be my baby, I want Diana to be mine but I know for sure if I say this to her she'll think I'm and obsessed psychopath which I'm not, I just love seeing her here with me, walking around the house holding little Amelia,the thought of the day she was brought into this world by her beautiful mother, I was there with her. The problem she has is trust, she doesn't trust anyone and want's to be independent, she doesn't want anyone to help her, she feels like she's obligated to carry the world on her shoulders, she doesn't want anyone to help her, I'm even a bit lucky she listens to me sometimes when I offer help. I sighed getting up from the dinner table going to the sink and washed my plate, I just ignored her, I don't want to lash out at her for just this little thing, I see it as a big thing instead, and why is that? It's because I'm undeniably falling hard for her and I don't want to ruin anything we have, I know she's afraid of taking that step apparently, but I'm willing to do anything to keep her close to me, but I guess she doesn't feel any sort of feelings towards me, she's just physically attracted to me, I stopped thinking when I heard her say
" are you not happy for me?" That was very wrong, I'm extremely happy and proud of her for taking that step, she's doing great in her working place, with Amelia, beign a mother and a friend, I really admire her a lot for that matter,
"I'm sorry, of course I'm happy for you, I'm more than proud of you, I thought you were comfortable enough for you to stay here for much longer you don't need to rush things Diana, just because you want to get back to your feet it shouldn't be so quick but it's your choice, I'm just going to miss you and Amelia, I'm not going to lie about that, you've become a person dear and special to me, I'm just a bit surprised that's it" i said kissing her forehead, she stared up at me then she kept staring from my lips to my eyes, it felt like she wanted to kiss me, I wish she knew how much I would love that, she then bit her lower lip,
"You're not angry?"she whispered, i kept  staring from her lips to her beautiful eyes, oh what I would do to that pretty plump lips of hers. I shook my head still holding her, she placed her head on my chest, I wish all this could last forever,
"Ok good I'm going to bed now" she said leaving the embrace,
"Ok good night when you're ready to move your things tell me so that I'll help you with the stuff"i said,
" oh no don't worry I'll..."
"No Diana I said what I said no argument " I said stermly, she sighed then smiled nodding her head,
"Goodnight" she said before turning around walking away.
I sighed In frustration, I really need to do something to show her how much I want her, but I have to control myself and my feelings for now  I just don't want her to reject me, I don't want to scare her. I walked back to my room and layed on my bed,
" I need to stop thinking of her but I don't know how and I don't want to " I said drifting to sleep, tomorrow is another day.