Unnamed - The Strange Love

Preface

“Then leave me!” he suggested.

Leaving me astounded as this wasn’t something I expected coming out of his mouth and this would be the last thing on the earth I’d wish to do. No matter how much we fight or argue I’d never leave him. I love him so much and I can’t even think of getting apart, he’s my life and how could I leave my life?

“What? You’re joking, right?” I asked hoping it’s one of his bad jokes and I swear to god if he’s playing this on me again I’m gonna spin his jaw because he can’t joke shit like this to me knowing how much I love him.

“No, I’m serious. Leave me,” he said

“I’m not leaving you” I replied instantly without even thinking for a minute because I’m very much clear in my mind that I don’t wanna leave him. I won’t leave him even if he tells me otherwise.

“Then I am.” He retorted.

Does he really want to leave me? No, this can’t be true. We’re so good together. He can’t just end it like this, we’d try if there is some problem, and we’d sort it out. Couples get into arguments, fight but that doesn’t mean to give up. I won’t give up.

“You’re what?” I stammered, scared he’d say he’s breaking up.

“Breaking up” he declared.

His words killing my heart. Why does he want to break up? Knowing how much I love him, how could he just tell me he’s breaking up? Doesn’t he know I love him?

“But w-hh-yy?” I stuttered looking at his face just to see the love he’s trying to hide but his face shows no emotion. Does he really want to break up? Doesn’t he love me?

‘He does love you’ - yelled my heart there’s something wrong with him. Is he being forced by someone? Or is he going through something bad?  Maybe. I’d find it out soon. I won’t leave him, not when I assume he’s into some sort of trouble. I’m sure as hell something is brewing which I ain’t aware of.

“I’m not able to handle the relationship. It’s just—it’s just too much for me.” he sighed

“Do you like someone else?” I couldn’t help but ask this. I really hope he doesn’t say ‘yes’ to it because then it would be more painful for me to handle.

“NO, it’s just I don’t want a relationship.” He practically yelled.

It kinda relieved me knowing he doesn’t like someone else. We’d be better soon I promised myself.

“Oh, but we don’t really have that lovey-dovey kind of relationship. Ours is a very casual one. Then what’s the problem?”

“Hmmm,” he said ignoring my question.

I just hate him when he replies to me with just ‘hmm’ I mean I’m so much tensed and all he could answer is ‘hmm’. Great.

“I don’t understand why you take this as a relationship. I mean we’re more like friends who’re in love. Why do you really have to think of as girlfriend-boyfriend? Why name it?” I insisted hoping he’d understand it. I do want to be his girlfriend, love him but if not naming the relationship would make him stay then I don’t see any problem in it. We’d be together and that’s all I want.

“Okay,” he agreed to make me the happiest person on this earth. I wanna kiss him so bad. Oh, my love!!

“We’d be together like we were, fuck each other, and do things together as we did. But won’t name it.” He continued.

I should be feeling happy hearing this but guess what I’m not. Does he want me just for sex? I never wanted this, I always wanted a relationship and now I’d just be someone he just wants to fuck. But I don’t wanna leave him too. I love him.

“Okay,” I said confused.

I’ve so many questions running in my mind that I’d have to ask him soon. If everything is the same then what’s the problem naming it? Doesn’t he want to stay loyal? Doesn’t he love me? Till when is this arrangement gonna work? Are we always gonna stay like this?

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It wasn’t how this started. There are hidden secrets, complications and drama. Not the usual romantic story but a strange one. So let's begin the journey of this strange love.