Asta Silva - Childhood and travel

Chapter 2

<Asta's perspective>

Two weeks have passed since I met Liebe and with a clear conscience I can say that it's been the best time of my life. He explained my powers to me and showed me which books I should read before we began training. The books he recommended were really fun! Not like the ones about etiquette that the teacher had me read. But I've never read any books by myself, because everyone told me that I'm too stupid for that and wouldn't understand anything. When I said that to Liebe, he said that my family is a bunch of assholes and I shouldn't worry about them. I don't know what that means, but no matter.

No one knows about my new friend. The maids fortunately didn't notice anything, but it would be hard for them to do so anyway, since they only come here on weekends to clean and give me food once a day. Yes, once a day. If not for the fact that there's a kitchen here and I taught myself how to cook I probably would've been starving. No one would care anyway. Or at least they wouldn't until someone saw it and began to spread rumors. At least the teacher didn't come anymore. He said that if I know etiquette then he has no reason to come here and he prefers to use his time on someone more valuable of his teachings. He probably said that to no one else but me, because even though my family dislikes me, they have to pretend that it's the opposite.Even though that when I was four years old, almost everyone rejected me and I was sent to a tower away from the main house, I still loved my father deep down inside. Before the doctor said I don't have magic, he was really great! He showed me tricks with his magic, let me fly on his broom and took me on trips with mom. When mom died, he began to distance himself, and on the day the doctor said the news, he cut himself from me, as well as everyone else."Kid" Liebe said suddenly when I was sitting on a chair, reading a book.

"Yes?"

What is it with your family anyway? I've only seen the maids, and they only come here once in a while"

"Well... I can go to the main house only when there are parties that I have to attend, or when Aunt Mereleona comes to visit"

"Why?" the spirit was shocked.

"I don't have magic. I'm actually surprised that after such a long time I wasn't disowned in the moment the doctor said it"

"And... Your parents don't care about you?" he asked. I saw the compassion in his red eyes. I laughed awkwardly.

"Yeah... I mean, I think my father hates me like the rest except the Vermillions from Aunt Mereleona's side, but I'm not so sure about Leopold"

"Why would they hate you?"

"They think I tainted the Silva family's name with my lack of magic"

"Yes, but now you have it. Why won't you just tell them that?"

I froze for a moment after hearing those words, remembering all the mockery and the times when Solid and Nebra used me as a moving target. I felt resentment towards them that I tried to bury deep inside. I didn't want to hate them. But I couldn't forget about what they did to me. I didn't want to forget. I wanted for them to apologize. To regret what happened.

"What I share with you is solely mine. No one will take it from me. I don't want to share it with anyone. I don't want my father to take me back in because I have magic. I want... I want revenge... I want him to beg for me to return to them" Imagining them begging for my forgiveness gives me a sudden rush of excitement that goes as quickly as it came. "Yet after all of this, I don't want them to suffer. It's confusing."

I felt a small hand on my hair.

"It's okay, kid. It's okay to feel bad, it's okay that you can't forgive them and that you still love them. You don't have to understand it now. Let youself feel, and then you can try to sort it out"Tears filled my eyes. No one said something like this to me. Maybe it's stupid, but I was always forced to behave properly. And those words... They triggered something that made me sob, hugging the spirit to myself.

Liebe is without a doubt the best thing that happened in my life.

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