beauty in death | christian anthony

second day.

— second day.

dance with me one more time, boy.
and tell me that i'll make it through, yuh.

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Chase Atlantic - BEAUTY IN DEATH

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you were on facetime with your parents, calling for – obviously – taking news but also telling them about the discussion you had with your doctor the day right before.

“[name], you look very anxious, did something happen ? „ the question asked by the sweet voice of your mom took you aback, your gaze immediately lowering and your teeth starting to bite the inside of your cheek.

“ actually.. yes. „ you said in a low voice, the courage left in your body helping you to meet your parents gaze. “ yesterday, i went to see mr. [doctor's name] for a quick checkup but.. i had a.. „ you hesitated, not knowing how to explain the situation.

“ little /surprise/, i'd say. „

you felt your heart shatter into your chest at the sight of your mom trying so hard to hold her tears back, your dad trying to see the positive in the situation.
“ well.. you said that only 10% of the cases would.. you know..
- yes, i still have a big chance..! „ you tried to seem happy and hopeful but you were as scared as your mom about this situation.

the call ended and you were alone again in this bed too big for you. you took a glance at the date of your phone, gulping loudly ; the guys are coming back in town tomorrow. /tomorrow/.
the panic started installing again in your head and your chest. how are you supposed to tell that to christian ?
'hey babe, i'm probably going to die but we don't know when !'
obviously /not/ like that.

everything in your mind was blurry. it's still hard to accept the fact that this illness could just end your life at any time. after a call with your doctor before the one with your parents, you were told that the cases passing away started feeling some kind of weakness a few weeks before.
you weren't feeling weak at all, so it can only be a good sign for now !