Hey , Brown girl

fell in love with a wrong guy 💔

Same day

Aditi's pov:

After spending some time with everyone expect suga , I was heading back to my room , I noticed that suga was trying really really hard to get my attention or to speak with me , I am feeling so so much guilty but I don't have any other choice.

I walked pass sugas room duh! He is my nabeour , I  found his door open , I was fighting a big urge not to peek in , but at last I'm human being .

I peeked inside making sure to check my surroundings first Making it sure that I didn't make it obvious that im staking a hot guy from Korea!

I slowly peeked inside, ohh he is not in his room. Strange , I walked inside his room opening the door slowly . His manly scent hits my nose instantly , ohhh gosh his room smells exactly like him. I took a deep breath inhaling as much scent I can , I always loved the way he smelled ..
I was scanning his room , it was clean and everything was arranged perfectly , then I felt some warm air on my exposed shoulder, before I could react I felt a cold hand snakes around my bare waist from back, I yelp Slightly jumping cause of my reflex .

??:shhh it's me .

I Slightly turned my head , and my eyes met his cold and beautiful one  , it was suga . Shit!!!!! Busted. I looked straight again, I can still feel his warm hand on my waist , I'm so much regretting wearing a saree now !! .

Me: I was .. I was just passing by and....

He cutted my sentence

Suga: it's okay I'm glad that you came !

He hugged me even tightly and snuggled his head in crook of my neck , I can feel his hot breath on my skin sending shivers down my spine . My body was frozen , my mind was not in my control . I didn't know what to do? Should I run or stay like this for rest of my life ?

My throughts were broken when I felt him move away from me , my skin was burning, craving for his touch again . I turned around to look at him , our eyes met , he was looking so mesmerizing today... he smiled at me , I can feel myself blushing so I looked away . I herd him sigh.

Suga: why ??!

Me: huh?

I looked at him confused

Suga: why are you doing this to me ? Can't you see it's breaking my heart?

I was so shocked to even form a word , what does me mean by breaking his heart ? I was still looking at him with wide eyes , he sighed and started walking towards me he was so close to me so I started walking backwards to maintain a good distance between us. Soon he was pinning me on the wall , his both hands on each side of my head, his legs between mine , his scent filled my nostrils again , driving me crazy for him , he leaned forward his face a inch apart from me , one single move and our lips will touch ..  

My heart was beating so fast like it's gonna Burst . My chest is rising and falling because of heavy breathing, he looked at me and smirked definitely enjoying seeing me so miserable.. I really wanna wipe his smirk from his handsome face with a good fat punch ...

He leaned more close ,I gasped turning my head on right side , preventing our lips to touch , my hands automatically rested on his hard chest . He laughed Slightly, his hot breaths hitting my neck below my ears .

Suga: why so miserable under me ? Hmm?

He said in his heavy husky voice  , omg he sounded so sexy... removing a hair stran away from my face ,his finger tips touching my cheeks , leaving a ticklish feeling behind.. i closed my eyes leanings into his touch ... then I felt his  finger slowly traveling from my cheek to my neck and from my neck to the exposed area on my chest above the cleavagee area leaving a burning sensation behind , i got goosebumps all over my body with his single and slight touch .. i can hear him chuckle and he pressed his lips on my neck giving a quick wet perk .. i opened my eyes and looked at him .before I lost my control i pushed him slightly , and ran out of his room , I closed the door of my room and leaned my back on it. My breath still on its peak and fast beating heart . I patted my chest lightly to calm my heart down.

After calming my stupid heart , i walked inside washroom to get changed , one by one I took my jewelry off me. But when I bend down to remove my Payal I found out that my one Payal was missing.. ohh nooo!! Where did it fell.? It was my favorite..!!! I faked cried , I will find it tomorrow. 

I got out of saree and walked under  warm shower , hot water sliding down from my head to other parts below , relaxing each and every muscle of my body . Normally hot showers calm my minds but this time it was different. I was so lost in my thoughts, what is that guy doing to me ? Why I was not able be resist him a wile ago ?? Why I am not able to ignore him? Why I'm always drawn towards him!? Why I felt so heart broken and guilty when I saw tears in his eyes ? Why?

"You know the answer " my self-conscious said . "No I don't " I replied, "WHY DON'T YOU ADMIT THAT YOU LIKE SUGA?!!" my inner voice yelled....

I.....I don't want to! . "WHYYY!???" I can hear my self-consciousness throwing tantrums inside my head . I grabbed my wet hairs in frustration closing my eyes..

" Cause .. he will never understand !!! He made it clear by himself that he can never like me !! He will push me away  and I am not ready for it yet!!! I..I don't want my heart to break again .. it....it
h..... hurts! "

My eyes filled with tears and I let them go , I can't hold them back anymore. YESSS I LIKE SUGA!!!! I accept my feelings. But I am not happy , the thing which i was so much afraid of is happening with me right now.  i.e falling in love with a guy who will never love me back  for the second time . Normally accepting our true feeling gives us satisfaction, relief and happiness. But In my situation it is giving me anxiety, hurt and sad feeling cause I fall in love with a wrong person.