TMH Prequel: Love is War

8: Confusion

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Chapter 8 || Confusion

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GEORGINA keeps scolding herself for what happened earlier. Hindi siya tumuloy sa Mansion at nagpadala nalang siya sa mga kasama sa sarili niyang condo unit where her father and her siblings doesn't know.

She was almost caught there! Kung sakaling dumating pa ang ibang underlings nito ay malamang hindi siya makakaalis roon ng walang sakit sa katawan.

Hanggang ngayon ay hindi niya talaga lubos na maintindihan kung bakit niya naisip na iligtas si Martin Forbes. Or why does she even need to make him safe from that mess? She's f*cking confused as hell! Hindi kasi dapat ganoon ang nangyari, if she's on her right mind she would have left him there. Wala siyang pakialam kung mapano man ito roon dahil labas talaga siya sa kung anong gulo ang meron ito.

"Just what the f*ck are you thinking, Georgina Kim! Why did you save him!" sinabunutan niya ang sarili.

She took the last sip from the glass of liquor in her hand at saka iyon ibinato sa ere sa labas ng balcony niya. Galit siya sa sarili niya at lalo siyang naiinis dahil hindi pwedeng malaman ng ama niya ang katangahan niya ngayong gabi.

Pumasok siya sa loob ng unit niya. Malaki iyon, dalawa ang silid, may kusina at living room. She bought this unit after her eighteenth birthday, a gift to herself. Dito siya naglalagi kapag gusto niyang mapag isa at mag isip isip.

She made sure her father can't trace this place dahil dito nalang talaga ang matatawag niyang peaceful place. Away from their life, in this chaotic and cruel world she's living in.

Pasalampak siyang naupo sa sofa and rested her head behind. She let out an audible sigh.

Martin Forbes...

Maybe kaya niya nagawa ang nangyari kanina ay dahil nahihiwagaan siya sa lalaki. For starters, he's not like any other men when she first met him. Parang ang gaan ng paligid kapag nariyan siya, like as if magaan ang mundo. Unlike his father... Every time he's around she felt like there's a time bomb around her. Na anumang oras ay nagbabadyang sumabog.

Ano kayang pakiramdam ni Giovanni sa paligid ng ama nito? Was he comfortable? Kasi siya eversince- she's never comfortable hanging around with his father.

"Damn it." she muttered. She's having her sentiments in this ungodly hour. Kailangan niya nang matulog at ayusin ang plano niyang pagdispatsa kay Giovanni para matapos na ang misyon niya. Maybe all of this confusion might pass later on. Yes, maybe she's just confused of Martin Forbes.

She went to her room and plopped herself on the bed. Muttering to have a good night sleep to herself.

She went to school with a throbbing headache. Ang hiling na maayos na tulog ay hindi dumating, she couldn't sleep at all! Siguro ay dalawang oras lang rin ang maayos na tulog niya.

"Kim, ayos ka lang? Masakit ba iyang ulo mo? Kanina mo pa minamasahe. Mukhang wala ka ring maayos na tulog, medyo nangingitim iyang ilalim ng mga mata mo." wika ni Gabriel sa kaniya.

They're having lunch at the cafeteria. Halos wala na rin siyang naiintindihan sa mga lessons sa class kanina dahil sa sakit ng ulo.