The journey of life is full of so many confusing emotions: love, hate, lust, jealousy. Trying to navigate new-found fame is a whole different journey in itself. When you add your idol into the mix, there to accompany and help you through the journey...
Nearly a month had passed and I still found myself replaying my moments with Justin over and over. Unfortunately, I hadn't heard from him since we had to say goodbye. I was trying to come to terms with it and heal within myself, even though I should've known better.
I had a feeling it would end up like this. Life had gone back to normal and it was almost as if nothing had ever happened. I had resumed working from home, picking up shifts at Broad Creamery, and performing every night that I could at the local bars.
Grace and I had kept more in touch, however. It wasn't every day that we were able to speak to one another, but we definitely were closer than we had been. I didn't expect much from Grace or Justin. They were well known and had shit to do.
I couldn't say that I wasn't disappointed, though. I was really hoping Justin would prove me wrong; that we'd actually keep in touch and at least be friends of some sort. I had tried my hardest to move on from that night, but it was impossible. He was addictive.
My day had been fairly boring. I had the day off from both of my jobs and had decided to take a self care day. This consisted of being lazy, laying around in pajamas, and watching movies all day. It was now later in the evening and I had finished eating dinner about an hour ago.
I was now deciding it was time to get to the actual self care; blasting music through my apartment and getting drunk to try to drown out my sorrows. Cliché, I know... I don't care, sometimes a girl just needs to get drunk and vibe by herself.
It wasn't too late, only seven-thirty-two in the evening and I was definitely buzzing off the big bottle of peach wine that was already a third of the way empty. I was sitting on the couch, listening to a random playlist from YouTube off of my tv, when my phone buzzed beside me.
Today 7:33 PM
gray: RYLEE
gray: I KNOW YOU'RE AWAKE
gray: HEYYYYY
gray: you just posted like 5 mins ago on your private story on snapchat, i know you're awake bitch
gray: DON'T YOU DARE IGNORE ME!!
rylee: HI
rylee: YES I'M AWAKE
rylee: WHAT
rylee: ARE YOU OKAY?!??
gray: oh good you are still awake
rylee: "hey, how've you been" would've been nice lol
rylee: what's so important? why were you yelling at me?? 👀
gray: hehehe
gray: *Sent a GIF*
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