illusions

The sound of rain

How I wish I could forget,

Erase the memories that darken my heart,

Start anew,

Without a name, without a past, without sins.

To forget the people who bothered me,

The moments when I suffered,

The memories that haunt my mind,

The recollections that turn into nightmares.

The passions that broke my heart,

The words that shattered my soul,

The images that distorted my mind.

I wish I could forget how much I cried alone,

How much loneliness has been a part of my life.

There's nothing I can do for it all to disappear,

How can the world be so cruel at times,

Without pity for the weak?

How can something so beautiful witness so much pain

And do nothing?

The only thing the world can do for me

Is listen, listen to my secrets, my anxieties, and my fears.

There's nothing it can do but weep for me,

Every time it rains, my chest warms because the sound of rain

Makes me feel less alone in this world.

How can the world be so cruel,

Seeing so much suffering, yet still doing nothing?

It only weeps in pity for our fragile souls.

I feel sad, though I also feel happy that it weeps with me.

I confess, I wish it were just for me.

I know that loneliness will never disappear,

But as long as I hear the sound of rain, my heart will find some comfort.

I know there's nothing I can do to ease my pain,

But I'll keep on smiling because I know that when I'm done crying,

The world will show me its smile, a dazzling rainbow.