illusions

My childhood memories

Sadness fills my heart 

I feel my soul suffocating 

I want to escape, breathe, set myself free 

I don't know what to do with all my suffering

I miss the memories of the past 

And I know one day I won't be able to remember what I felt

What I would do to escape from this life 

I want her to come back to me, embrace me, and never let go

I'm tired of suffering 

I want to go back to my childhood 

Stay trapped in that time 

Stop forgetting

I want her to come back 

So I can see her smile I want to forget everything and return to her arms 

I want this to be a nightmare I'll wake up from

Memories are drifting further away with each day 

I feel like I'm becoming more and more alone 

I wish I could go back to that house 

Feel that kind of happiness again

I wish I could look in the mirror without wanting time to reverse 

Sleep without fearing to forget her voice 

Smile without having to pretend Look back without the urge to run away

Look at the sky with her again 

Return to being a child, dance, sing, smile again, just for her

 Be embraced by her when I'm sad Hold her hand

Return to that time when we only cared about each other 

Why can't I go back to that time? 

The happy memories, the dreams, the smiles, and the illusions are all in the past with her

Even if I don't see her again, I hope one day I can hug her once more 

The times when I was happy are gone 

I wish I could go back there one more time

At least I wish the memories of that time would stay 

But my heart knows they have to disappear 

Because as long as they exist, I'll remember that my life can never be like that again

The happy days I spent back then remind me that she's no longer here, and that thought fills me with sadness

My heart knows it's better to forget 

Every day, it's harder to remember how happy I was back then

I wish I could remember her smile 

I would give anything to remember how I felt when she hugged me

As the days pass, my heart gets lighter 

I wish I didn't have to forget, but I know it's for the best because I can't bear to shed more tears

I've decided to stop looking back and move forward 

The only thing I don't want to forget is how happy I was back then.