Monasterio Series #3: One More Night

Chapter 21

Chapter 21

Pagod kong ibinagsak ang katawan sa malambot na kutson. Maiksi lang ang naging paguusap namin ni Cade na 'yon pero nagawa noon ubusin ang lakas ko. Alam kong mahirap para sa kanya ang intindihin ang lahat ng sinabi ko pero wala na siyang ekplanasyon na maaasahan pa mula sa akin kung hindi ang katotohanang hindi ko na siya mahal.

I fell out of love with him and that's the only reason I can give. I won't sugarcoat it anymore. He knew me as a straight forward woman so I don't understand why he's doubting over it. If he's thinking that I'm breaking up with him because I have someone else, so be it.

I won't and I will never consider or think that Zadriel is the reason why I am ending this thing between Cade and I. Heaven knows I have been ready to cut our relationship even before I met Zadriel. Wala siyang kinalaman sa desiyon ko. Wala siyang papel. Those sex and steamy moments that I've got to share with him have nothing to do with my decision.

Bumukas ang pintuan. Tamad akong napabaling roon at nakita si Mommy, seryoso ang ekpresyon ng mukha. I pulled my gaze away from the doorway and anchored it on the white ceiling.

"Can we talk?" she questioned.

"Mommy, kung sesermunan mo po ako i-text mo na lang. Nagkalat ang brain cells ko ngayon. Baka hindi ko rin ma-absorb ang ano mang sasabihin mo."

Narinig ko ang buntong hininga niya. I felt her sit on the edge of my bed.

"You only got my physical appearance but your attitude is truly unbelievable. Hindi naman ako ganiyan nung kabataan ko. I'm sure your father didn't talk that way to your Lola Valerie." she said without any hint of irritation.

Natawa ako bago napabangon. "Aminin mo, Mommy, hindi si Daddy ang totoo kong ama— "

Halos mapasimangot ako nang hilahin niya ang buhok ko at taliman ako ng mga mata. Her cat-like eyes only intensified as she glares at me.

"Aray naman, My!"

"Your father is the only man I have ever loved, Tatiana. Hindi kailanman ako nagkaroon ng iba kahit pa sabihing ikinasal ako sa Tito Archer mo. You know my story."

Of course, I do. It's not a secret in the first place. Maging si Kuya Tobias ay alam ang tungkol sa nakaraan nila ni Tito Archer. And for us, it doesn't really matter since there's no love involved between the two of them... I think.

Sinuklay ko ang buhok gamit ang mga daliri at tinitigan si Mommy na nakatingin sa labas ng bintana.

"Mommy, tatawag na ba ako kay DJ Cha para sabihing handa ka na makipag heart to heart talk?" inosente ang mukhang tanong ko.

I earned another death glare from her. "You and your nonsense joke. What happened to you and Cade?"

I groaned and let my back fall on the matress. "Let's not talk about him, Mommy-"

"I want to know. Don't make me repeat myself again, Tatiana."

Ngumuso ako saka nagpakawala ng buntong hininga. "I fell out of love. As simple as that."

"How?"

"I don't know. It just happened."

"You have someone else?"

"Wala, My. Hindi ko alam kung sa paanong paraan, kung sa anong dahilan at kung kailan nawala 'yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Basta ko na lang napagtanto..." Huminga ako ng malalim at tiningnan siya. "Ikaw, Mommy? Hindi ba at ilang beses kayong naghiwalay noon ni Daddy? Was there any moment that you thought to yourself that it's gone? That there's no love anymore?"