Dear Diary

Chapter 10

Today is the day. The day, We all waited for. The ending of our lives if it means what I think. I dont know what will happen or how well going to die but I also dont want to know it. Carla looks at me and I want to hug her but I also want to cry. I am not sure. He said it like he wants to go to a Garden Party with his friends. How can he act like this is normal? We didnt do anything to Hitler and he wants to kill us for no reason. Or maybe, just because we are disabled or we are having a different religion. This is the perfect moment to fill my diary.

Dear Diary,

Gut, dass der Rest von euch heute wegkommt. That is what the soldier said to me and Joe today. I guess well all going to die today. What would you on your last day? I dont have much options. I guess Ill spend today with Carla and Joe. It will be a day like every day. I just wanted to thank you for being just my diary. Maybe it is a little strange that I am talking to a book right now. But you were the only one who listened to my problems at all. Okay, my Mother were too. But she is in heaven as Ill be soon. Thank you.

Your Evelin.

Maybe this were the last sentences I wrote. I hope that the soldiers will feel bad after destroying our lifes. You were born to make the world a better place. My Mother always said. The opposite to my father. You were born to die one day. His words were closer to the reality. I dont want to tell everyone what the soldier said because theyd get in panic.

Carla and I are enjoying our last hours with Joe. We are talking about our childhood and how happy we were. It is 8 PM now and were really nervous. It rains. Joe holds my hand and I feel like it was a normal day when I was eleven years old. Maybe it is normal to think so much about my childhood when I am so close to death. Well do it together. Carla whisper and I feel saved.

Were sleeping when someone screams something.

Raus!

I look at Carla and I see the tears in her eyes. Dont cry. Well going to be okay. I whisper. We are going outside but the soldier hasnt prepared something to say. He is screaming something and many soldiers are coming. They are pushing us and some people are falling down. Everyone is taking care of his own health.

Carla is holding my hand. I know that she wouldnt let me go. Well do this together. That is what she said. Were getting pushed out of the barbed wire fence. We are going to a house. The two big chimneys are still there.

Bringt sie rein

We are getting pushed into the house. Everyone is screaming. It is a little room and it reminds me of a changing room for sport. I cant do that. Everyone is putting of their clothes. There is a door. It gets opened.

Rein. Ihr werdet duschen.

They are going inside and I am going to the left. There is a wardrobe. Behind is a little place. I am hiding in it. I lost Carla and Joe but everyone is taking care for his own. They are going into the room and I look at them. I feel so bad for them. They are going into their own dead and I am alive. I take a closer look and I am looking straight into the eyes of Michael. He looks really scared. I guess this is my ending but he ignores the fact that I am hiding. It is really good to know him since our childhood. I am safe. I will live my life if Ill get out of here. The soldiers are closing the doors. Carla and Joe are in there. I feel emty. Carla was my best friend and Joe was the boy I love. They are dying while I am sitting here. The soldiers are leaving the room and they are closing the door. I leave. A window is opened and the doors from the barbed wire fence are also opened for this time. They are always, because we would be in the houses normally. I am the only one who survived. I force myself through the window and I am standing in front of the lager. This was a journey. I survived and I guess Ill better leave now.

I am going through a big wood. It is complicated to find my way through the trees. After half an hour of going I am standing on a street. I follow the people who are walking down the street.

Sie sieht so alleine aus. Komm, wir helfen ihr.

I did not understand but a woman is taking my hand.

Hallo. Möchtest du mit uns kommen? Wo sind deine Eltern?

I am not talking German. I whisper. She also says something but I cant understand because she talks quietly. But she takes me to her horse drawn carriage. A man sits in it. I guess it is her husband. That could be Joe and me. I cant control my tears. I am crying at the whole way to their house.

The man knows my Mother. I dont know from where, but he knows her and he knows our house. He calls someone and after a year I am hearing the voice of my brother.

Evelin? Meine Schwester? Sie lebt noch? Bringen sie sie zu uns!

I cant believe that I am going to see my family in a few minutes. We are arriving the house were I only slept one night. Max and my father are standing in front of it and I never saw them crying but now they do. The drawn carriage gets opened but I cant run into their arms. I am too tired. My father comes and he hugs me. I guess my Grandmother died. She isnt standing there to wink but she was also very old This must be a dream. Max is laughing and crying at the same time. I was in a lager. A whole year. The only one who survived. I whisper while falling asleep closely.