*𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐏# | completed

𝐂𝐗𝐗𝐗𝐕𝐈

• • • • ☾︎ axle's pov

I need to save Jacinth.

I need to save her.

That's all I wanna do right now.

Nangako ako sa sarili ko na gagawin ko ang lahat para lamang sa kanya. Nangako ako na makukuha ko siya pabalik. Even if it's nearly impossible, atleast I tried right?

I'll find her. Kahit na saang lupalop pa siya dinala ng lintek na Topher na 'yon. Literal na susuyurin ko ang buong mundo, para lamang makita siya.

"Kain ka muna." Freya handed me a bowl of rice and a cup of coffee but I refused her offer. She insisted though, so I took the coffee from her hand, ignoring the bowl of rice.

Bumalik na muli ang tingin ko sa laptop screen ko, hoping to find something relevant from this series of letters and numbers. I need to find something na makakapagturo sa akin ng lokasyon kung saan itinago si Jacinth.

I felt Freya's presence in my right but I still ignored her. Wala na siyang ibang sinasabi kung hindi, I need to stop this. Na kesyo nakakasama na raw sa akin. She says, it's not healthy anymore at nababaliw na ako.

She doesn't understand me. Hindi niya ako pinapakinggan. All I wanted to do is for us to be complete kahit na imposible na talaga ito since tatlo na lamang kami excluding Topher. But at least kahit kaming tatlo man lang, makumpleto right?

Hindi ko na maramdaman ang mga kamay ko sa bilis nito sa pagtipa ngunit hindi pa rin ako tumitigil. Nararamdaman kong malapit ko nang makamit ang pinakaasam-asam ko kaya bakit ngayon pa ako titigil?

Jacinth has been my world. She has been the shoulder that I could cry on. The ears that could hear my rants
The reason why I'm still alive. I know it sounds corny, but I don't think I can live without her.

Ngayon pa nga lang na wala pang isang linggo ang disappearance niya, Freya said na nababaliw na ako, what more if it continues as days pass by? I don't think that I'll be able to regain my usual self unless she comes back.

Hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit kailangan niyang sumama sa demonyong iyon. I know that she saved us. Pero alam ko rin naman kaseng hindi lang iyon ang paraan. There's a lot of ways.

If life has given you one choice to choose on, then make another.

Hindi ako naniniwalang ayun lamang ang choice na puwede niyang piliin. Humans have free will. Tayo ang may desisyon ng kung anong mangyayari sa buhay natin.

What if.... fuck no.

What if she really wants to be with Topher all this time? What of this is her way to be with him and escape me?

Naiyukom ko ang kamao ko sa sobrang galit. If that's the reason, then hindi ako makakapayag na makatakas na lang siya.

'Ano bang iniisip mo, Axle? Do you think Jacinth could really do that? Are you doubting her?' I told my self.

Bigla na lang akong may naramdaman na mainit na likidong naagos sa kaliwang kamay ko na nasundan ng sigaw ni Freya.

"Axle! Ano ka ba naman!" she shouted at my face.