DID, OSDD

Idk Man

So, Rose managed to take the body's hair from black to blond in just over a week. How in the hell she did it without losing all our hair (not to mention it is also in 'pristine condition' as Liz stated over and over again) I have absolutely no idea!

But onto both great and absolutely frustratingly angering topics~

Let's start with the ONLY good thing that has gone down since last post.
Rose's father has really come around, he even admitted that he never believed DID existed but we helped show him he was wrong. He's been nothing but encouraging and supportive to us. Which is so lovely.
Also I had my sister (Blair) and of course myself (Kate) make a few appearances; whoops 😈

But now onto much more frustrating experiences.

We went to finally meet the doc who could diagnose us, or at the very least give us some peace of mind.
He said he didn't know enough about DID to diagnose us and because the body is only 17 that he wouldn't diagnose us. He said "It's a very real possibility that you suffer from DID but we just can't diagnose you because you're young and it'll label you for life"
That's kinda what we fμcking wanted! We want to be diagnosed, we want to be assured that NO you're not CRAZY. It wouldn't ruin our life to have that label, it would be saving it really. Cause now we don't know what to do, he hit us hard. If we're crazy, then what is the point of being a functioning human being? If we aren't diagnosed, then we're just some crazy person who everyone assumes is high all the time. What's the point of being responsible? Productive? Energetic?
We belong in a looney-bin, an asylum. We should be hospitalized for insanity or some sh!t. What is the point anymore? I mean, we had our shot and we blew it. Who will ever diagnose us? Who CAN?

Moving on *awkward cough* my next complaint is just plain old bloody annoying.

So there is this dude, absolutely head over heels for us. Idk why.
He just doesn't understand the meaning of 'Im not into you' we legit made it crystal clear we didn't like him like that but he wouldn't stop!
But then something happened and I have to keep him close so he doesn't tell anyone. He bloody guessed we had DID!! How? Why? When? Idk! But I don't trust this little breakable chicken. He has no spine, he infuriates me! He acts as if we are married and doesn't stop going on about his own issues.
I don't understand emotions and singles. They're so confusing.
And he has so many emotions, I don't know what to do!

And now for my final update

Rose's mum hates me! I don't entirely blame her, I did give her reason too.

I may not have reacted well to the docs decision. I might have, welllll, put Rose through hell. Just a little. A lot.

I was upset, angry and hurt. Did we not exist to anyone else? Does no one see us? See me?

I had put our system on lockdown out of retaliation. Leaving Rose alone out front for two and a half weeks. If we didn't exist, why should we help?
Except, we do exist and we are here. We have feelings and memories and desires all of our own. All of us are trapped inside this head and body. So yeah, I can get a little damn petty but dammit I am real! I am real and I am never going away. Neither is anyone else up here with me.

So, what can I say?
Shit happens