Unexpected

Complications

* Flashback Colson POV *

"What would we do if I ever got pregnant?" Sienna asked me, out of nowhere.

What?

I quickly adjusted my gaze to look at her. "That would be insane. We should never have a child."

The look on her face was as if I had just slapped her. I didn't intend for that to come out as harsh as it did. I felt bad for saying it, but it was the truth. We shouldn't.

"Oh, okay." She said slowly, then broke eye contact for a second. "Can I ask why not?" She asked, hiding her face from me behind a wall of hair.

"Do you really wanna be a mom?" I asked her honestly.

I sat up as she tried to get off the bed but I stopped her.

"I hadn't really thought too much of it. It was just a thought that popped up in my head." She said quietly, trying to avoid my eyes.

I reached over and cupped her cheek, and slowly turned her head to look at me.

"What's going on in this pretty head of yours?" I asked softly, and she half smiled and shook her head.

"Nothing, I just wanted to make sure we were on the same page. Now I know what page you're on."

"Are you not on that page?" I asked, but she was silent in response.

She quickly stood up before I could stop her, and she started gathering her clothes to get dressed. I wasn't sure what I did or said that was wrong, but I could tell I had really upset her.

"Sienna..." I started, and she turned around in the doorway. "I just don't think that a kid should have to get stuck with me for a dad. I'd be a terrible father." I said truthfully.

I didn't have any good role models, or parental figures. I just didn't have any clue of what I should do as a parent. I only had ideas of what I shouldn't do.

She knows that. She understands that, right?

"No, you're right. I'd be a shitty mom. I'd probably accidentally give our kid crack for dinner like my mom did to me and Derek when I was 11." She said, then smiled. "God, Derek was so pissed. He used the rest of the money he had to take me to McDonald's."

"He's a good brother." I told her, and she looked like she had tears in her eyes.

"Yeah, he is. God I miss him." She said with a sniffle. "Better parent than my parents could ever hope to be."

"Maybe it wouldn't be so bad. But I don't think that we're ready for that. I mean, we should wait until my career takes off at least. Right?"

"Colson."  She said with a sigh, and sat back down on the edge of the bed.

"Yeah?"  I asked, my eyes burning into hers with curiosity. I was dying to know what I said wrong.

"I'm pregnant, Colson." She said softly.

It felt like time stopped for a moment. Everything stood still.

Sienna just dropped a bomb on me.

This is insane. I'm only twenty years old. How am I gonna have a kid? How am I gonna raise a child with as fucked up as I am?  All I could think about in this moment was the horrible way I grew up. All of the things that could go horribly wrong if I bring a child into this world. I'll never be able to do this.

But the thought of doing it with Sienna is the only thing that made me feel better about this. A kid that is a mix of her and I, that'd be one bad ass little dude. And if he gets any of her looks, he'll be a cute little fucker too.