I didn't think that I would be suffocated
The pressure it deepens
Down deep in my chest
My lungs they struggle to expand
I breathe in
But it only comes back
On me
This is what happens
When you're young and you can't be
In control of the actions that were before you were born
Genetic mutations
The food says no
You heart and beats slower
And your lungs they scream
I want to breathe
I want to see
What it's like to be without these things
But then you think
What would I be if I wasn't like this
Pain tolerance
I can't feel that shot gun bullet going through my heat
I'm too stuck in my head about the emotional pain
The pain that haunts me every day
No physical pain could change that
My organs they say I want to shut down
But I won't take that
Ill fight
Fight for the attempt
I will not give in
To the. Pain
There's just no way.
As my lungs say no
My ,ind says keep trying
My body says stop moving
And I try to keep my eyes open the best they can
I'm hurting
I don't want to mention that I'm hurting
But I try to look as ecstatic as can be
Here's the thing
I try to get past these times
I'm losing my head
My breath it becomes slower
And harder to take it
This is what I call helplessness
When you feel like your a officiating
You try and try to breath in but it just doesn't let you exhale
This is what it's like
For me
This is the first time it's been in years
But
I have asthma
And I knew from the start
But now it's worse
I don't know why I even tried in the first place.
I wish I could fix myself
By I'm who I am because of what I be done
I want to do all these things
But medical say that I have to stop
But no one can tell me
That I'm not good enough
No one can tell me
That I'm going to give up
So ill face this
Even if its hard to breath
Ill face
And I'll just tell it
To scream
Leave me be!
So here I am
My breath shallow
My lungs having a hard time
But I'm not panicking
I'm doing what I can
So tell asthma
What's your next plan?
